The Entire History of You
Stepson Lyrics

I'm finding myself less and less
I'm losing my sense of self and identity

To decline something to feel, something to taste
I'm losing my ability to appreciate or enjoy things

To let go of my mind through drug abuse and all the pain
I'm resorting to drugs as a means of escape from my problems

I know that I have changed to be just like you, to be just like you
I've become like the person who has caused me pain

Every single time I think of you I can't help but get upset
Thinking of you always brings up negative emotions for me

Constant, disgusted, outrageous and nauseous
I feel constantly upset, disgusted, and sickened by what you have done to me

You know that I'm not sleeping well but you don't fucking care
You're aware that I'm struggling but you don't show any concern for my well-being

My dreams are depleting just tainted and lonely
My hopes and aspirations are fading, and I feel isolated and alone

I'm sorry that it's come to this, my greatest fear that I couldn't resist
I regret that our relationship has deteriorated to this point, and I am afraid of the consequences of standing up to you

It made so much sense to do what you did but telling me "you're okay" is the opposite
Although you had reasons for your actions, telling me that I should be okay with them only makes things worse

I wish I could say what you did to me without sounding like a hypocrite
I want to call you out for your actions, but I feel like a hypocrite because I've started to become like you

I just can't do this anymore, I'm sick of being ignored
I can't handle this situation any longer, and I'm tired of being treated as if my feelings don't matter

Take me away to a place that can't hurt me
I want to escape to a place where I won't be emotionally or physically harmed

Take me away to a place that won't leave me
I want to go somewhere where I won't be abandoned or left alone

Take me away from here, I'm coming down
I need to leave this situation to calm down and feel better

I feel I'm the poison that's killing you so sweet, so selfish
I'm starting to believe that my presence in your life is ultimately harmful to you, but I can't bring myself to leave

Goodbye, I can't look at you
I am done with this relationship and cannot bear to see you anymore

I feel so sick, so sick of who I am
I hate who I've become as a result of this toxic relationship

So sick of fucking trying
I'm exhausted from constantly trying to make things work and failing

I don't want to pretend that I'm okay with this
I can't keep up the facade of being fine with how things are

I'm killing myself just to fix what you've broken (Fix what you've broken)
I'm hurting myself in an attempt to heal the damage you've done to me

You've taken all of me, I hope you like what you've stolen
You've taken everything from me, and I hope it brings you satisfaction

I'm getting withdrawals, my head is so cluttered
I'm experiencing withdrawal symptoms and my thoughts are chaotic

What have I become? I've never been so disgusted
I can't believe what I've turned into, and it sickens me

You know who you are, you know who you are
You know what you've done and who you are as a person

Why won't you help me?
I need your support and assistance, but you refuse to provide it

Why won't you look at me?
You can't face what you've done and won't even look at me when we talk

I'm the one that you refuse to see
You're willfully ignorant of my struggles and won't acknowledge my pain

I don't know what to say to you
I'm at a loss for words when it comes to communicating with you

You were never there, you were never there
You were never present in this relationship, even when I needed you the most

Why won't you look at me?
You're avoiding looking at me and facing the truth of what has happened between us

Why are you scared of me?
You're afraid of the consequences of what has happened between us and the way I feel about you