Who I Am
Stroke 9 Lyrics

I freak out when I think about
I become anxious when I ruminate about

This catastrophe that I call myself
My self-perceived flaws and faults feel like a disaster

I think I'm takin' everything too seriously
I believe I am treating everything with far too much gravitas

No, seriously I think I'm alright
I am actually convinced I am doing just fine despite my worries

I don't want to fight
I have no desire to argue or create conflict

Never considered myself uptight
I have never thought of myself as overly tense or rigid

I know I'm getting there
I am aware I am approaching a certain state or condition

When people stop and stare
I infer that people are paying attention to me in a way that feels uncomfortable or unusual

You said a bunch of things I never should have known
During our recent phone call, you revealed information to me that should not have been shared

Given the chance or whatever circumstance
Under different conditions or situations

A little romance might have saved me
There is a possibility that entering into a romantic relationship could have improved things for me

You let go and I held on tight
While we were together, you released your hold and I held onto you firmly

It wasn't even that I wanted to play
I wasn't attempting to play games or manipulate the situation

I was just trying to think of a good way to say that
I was struggling to articulate my thoughts and feelings in a productive and clear manner

You win this is where I've been
I concede that my current situation is less than ideal

This is how it is, this is who I am
This is the reality I must confront; this is an accurate reflection of my true self

This is where we are, this is how it goes
This is our current situation and how things are progressing

And there's so much more to me no-one knows
There are aspects of my character and experiences that no one has yet discovered or learned about

This is who I am, this is how I know
I am confident in my self-understanding and awareness of my identity

If there's something wrong that's just how it goes
If things are not working out as planned, that is just a part of the process

And tonight this is wrong this is right, this is dark this is light
In this particular moment, some things may be correct while others are not, and there may be both positive and negative aspects to the situation

There's a look in your eye that just can't be denied
Your facial expression or gaze is communicating something that cannot be ignored or dismissed

Just sit down and enjoy the sound
Simply relax and appreciate the music playing

I'm gonna take you all the way around
I will guide you through a full and complete experience

I grew up with the doors all shut
As a child, I was raised in a closed or restrictive environment

And the music in my head was the escape I found
Music provided me with a means of escape or distraction from my surroundings

When I try something new I wanna win it
I have a competitive desire to succeed when attempting a novel experience

There's something else that I'll tell you in a minute
I have another thought or desire to articulate, but I will share that shortly

Nothing comes easy as I'm sure you know
It is likely that you are familiar with the fact that challenges and obstacles are a frequent occurrence

But I'm just trying to look for the right way to go
I am currently engaged in the process of seeking and determining the optimal path or direction