The Miracle
Suicidal Tendencies Lyrics

I sailed forever, I sailed so far, and now I know just what the consequences are
I've gone through life trying to find my way, but now I realize that my actions have consequences.

I laughed out loudy, while I cried inside
I pretended like everything was fine, even though I was hurting on the inside.

But I didn't haave the strength to say enough of this ride
I knew something was wrong, but I couldn't bring myself to speak up and change things.

Like a fool-I believed in a miracle
I held onto false hope and believed that everything would magically get better.

I wanted to forget, of what I'm not sure
I wanted to escape my problems, even though I wasn't sure what was causing them.

But I found an answer-it seemed to be a perfect cure
I thought I had found a solution to my problems, but it turned out to be temporary and only made things worse in the long run.

Controlled my actions, controlled my thoughts
I let something or someone else take control of my life and decisions.

Controlled my feelings, and now I feel my body rot-like a fool
I suppressed my emotions for so long that it started to have negative effects on my physical health.

I believed in the miracle
Despite everything, I still held onto false hope and believed that things would magically get better.

Twisting and I'm turning-freezing then I'm burning
My emotions and mental state were all over the place and I didn't know how to handle it.

Laughing then I'm crying-am I living or am I dying
I had moments of joy and despair, but I wasn't sure if I was truly living or merely existing.

Swearing then I'm praying-don't even know what I'm saying
I tried to cope with my problems through both anger and religion, but I wasn't sure what I truly believed in or what to do.

Happy then so sad-forgiving then so mad
My moods and emotions fluctuated greatly, and I struggled with conflicting feelings of forgiveness and anger.

Do you still, do you still believe, do you still believe in, Do you still believe in miracles?
Despite everything that's happened, do you still hold onto false hope and believe that things will get better on their own?

Pushing then pulling-who am I fooling
I tried to fight against my problems, but then found myself giving into them instead.

A friend then a foe-do I really even know?
Someone I thought I could trust and rely on ended up turning against me, making me question who I can truly count on.

Love and then hate Peace then at war-but what am I fighting for
I struggled with conflicting feelings of love and hate and didn't know what I was truly fighting for at the end of the day.

And you always try to Keep me-oh so sleepy So I can't realize-that it's all lies And the more it takes hold of me-the less chance that I'll ever be free
Someone or something was holding me back and keeping me complacent and unaware of the truth, making it harder for me to break free.

And even though I don't believe-it's so hard to leave-a miracle-a miracle
Despite knowing deep down that my false hope is misplaced and things won't magically get better, it's still hard for me to let go and move on.

Waiting-always hesitating-for that perfect day-that day was yesterday
I always put off taking action and waiting for the right moment that never truly arrives, making me regret not acting earlier.

And the more you're gonna wait-the more of a chance that it will be too late
By waiting too long, there's an increasing chance that things will be too far gone to be fixed.

How can you afford to wait, you just can't afford to wait
Waiting and delaying action is a luxury that I can't afford if I truly want to make progress and improve my situation.

I shed a tear I won't deny it, but just one tear I already cried it And now you'll see me cry no more, don't even know what I was crying for
I've already shed tears over my problems, but now I'm done dwelling on them and don't even understand why I was so upset in the first place.