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Vocals- Ben Bloomer
Guitar - Mike Grove
Drums - Ryan Powell
Bass - Ali Lugo
Selfish
Sun of Nile Lyrics
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Rising up to where I left it
Way beyond what you've expected
Sort it out, seems fine
Pushed to my borderline
Left always high
Turned around
The hand that holds you down
The same story now
I'm here banging my head
Trying to see just how I left you
With a doubt
I would neglect you
And I will always be
Burned in your memory
You're never free
Turned around
You're laughing at
The hand that holds you down
The same story now
Turned to see
You snapping at the hand that feeds
And I allow
Seems to me the same story now
My hands are
Left bleeding
Post-savage, selfish feeding
Tossed in this endless spiral
That coaxes my denial
I alone have held the answers to what I've become
Only show a side refracting things that I've done
What lies here now
Turned around
You're laughing at
The hand that holds you down
The same story now
Turned to see
You snapping at the hand that feeds
And I allow
Seems to me the same story now
The song "Selfish" by Sun of Nile is a haunting and introspective portrayal of a relationship that has gone sour. The lyrics speak of regret and self-doubt as the persona looks back on a past love and wonders how they could have been so selfish. The first verse sets the tone with the lines "When I feel my breath/Rising up to where I left it/Way beyond what you've expected," which seem to suggest that the persona is trying to reclaim something that was lost or forgotten. The lines "Pushed to my borderline/Left always high" suggest that the persona was always looking for more and never satisfied with what they had.
The chorus seems to refer to the distorted perspective that both parties have of the relationship. The lines "Turned around/You're laughing at/The hand that holds you down/The same story now" suggest that the other person is unwilling to take responsibility for their part in the relationship and is instead blaming the persona for everything that went wrong. The persona is left feeling powerless and frustrated and is "banging [their] head" trying to make sense of it all.
The second verse continues with the theme of regret and self-doubt. The lines "My hands are/Left bleeding/Post-savage, selfish feeding/Tossed in this endless spiral/That coaxes my denial" suggest that the persona was responsible for the breakdown of the relationship and is now left feeling guilty and ashamed. The lines "I alone have held the answers to what I've become/Only show a side refracting things that I've done" suggest that the persona is aware of their shortcomings but is unable to change.
Overall, "Selfish" is a powerful and emotional song that explores themes of regret, self-doubt, and the unending cycle of dysfunctional relationships.
Line by Line Meaning
When I feel my breath
When I become aware of my own existence
Rising up to where I left it
Recalling a moment of clarity
Way beyond what you've expected
Beyond the expectations of others
Sort it out, seems fine
Resolving internal conflict
Pushed to my borderline
Approaching the edge of sanity
Left always high
Constantly seeking a state of euphoria
Turned around
Looking back
You're laughing at
Others mocking or belittling my struggles
The hand that holds you down
External forces that hinder progress
The same story now
Cycle of repeating patterns
I'm here banging my head
Frustration with lack of progress
Trying to see just how I left you
Reflecting on the impact of my actions
With a doubt
Uncertainty or regret
I would neglect you
Causing harm through disregard
And I will always be
An unshakable part of your memory
Burned in your memory
Leaving a lasting impression on others
You're never free
Others impacted by my actions will never fully move on
Turned to see
Looking in a new direction
You snapping at the hand that feeds
Reacting negatively to those who support you
And I allow
Continuing to permit negative behavior
Seems to me the same story now
The pattern of negative behavior continues
My hands are
Acknowledgement of the physical effects of toxic behavior
Left bleeding
Causing harm to oneself or others
Post-savage, selfish feeding
Selfish actions with lasting negative impacts
Tossed in this endless spiral
Trapped in a cycle of negative behavior
That coaxes my denial
Forcing an individual to deny their harmful behavior
I alone have held the answers to what I've become
Taking ownership of one's own actions and behavior
Only show a side refracting things that I've done
Presenting a distorted view of behavior to others
What lies here now
Acknowledging the current state and consequences of behavior
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Ben Bloomer
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