Tears On My Pillow
Sweet California Lyrics
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And i say i′m alright, i'm okay
And i′m hanging out with my friends
Every night, every day
Been pretending to myself
That i'm not here missing you
And i'm building up a wall
But nobody knows, no
Sometimes
There′s tears on my pillow
'Cause i can′t forget you
Sometimes
I lie to myself but my heart still remembers
I fool myself and i fight it
I push it away and deny it
But sometimes
There's tears on my pillow
Tears on my pillow
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows
No one ever could
Love me good, hurt me bad
Like you did, oh no
I don′t wanna know where you go
Who you are or who you're with
But when i hear your name
All the walls fall around me
′Cause it brings back all the pain
And the waves nearly drown me
But nobody knows, no
Sometimes
There's tears on my pillow
'Cause i can′t forget you
Sometimes
I lie to myself but my heart still remembers
I fool myself and i fight it
I push it away and deny it
But sometimes
There′s tears on my pillow
Tears on my pillow
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (oh, nobody)
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (no)
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (oh, tears on my pillow)
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (nobody knows)
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (nobody knows)
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (nobody knows)
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (no)
Sometimes there's tears on my pillow
′Cause i can't forget you
Sometimes i lie to myself
But my heart still remembers
Sometimes
There′s tears on my pillow
'Cause i can′t forget you
Sometimes
I lie to myself but my heart still remembers
I fool myself and i fight it
I push it away and deny it
But sometimes
There's tears on my pillow
Tears on my pillow
The lyrics to "Tears on My Pillow" by Sweet California convey the emotional struggle of trying to move on from a past relationship. The singer puts on a facade of being alright and hanging out with friends, but deep down, they are still missing their ex and cannot forget them. They build walls around their heart to protect themselves from getting hurt again, but their heart still holds onto the memories and emotions associated with their former lover. The pain resurfaces when they hear their ex's name, and it feels like the walls of protection crumble, making them feel overwhelmed with grief.
The repetition of the phrase "No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows" emphasizes the sense of isolation and secrecy. The singer is trying to hide their true feelings and the tears they shed, as they do not want others to know how much they are still affected by the breakup. Despite the attempts to deceive themselves and deny the lingering emotions, tears still appear on their pillow as a symbol of the deep sadness they carry within.
Line by Line Meaning
Put my make up on
I try to hide my true emotions and put on a brave face
And i say i'm alright, i'm okay
I pretend to be fine and show everyone that I'm okay
And i'm hanging out with my friends
I distract myself by spending time with friends
Every night, every day
I try to keep myself busy and occupied all the time
Been pretending to myself
I have been lying to myself
That i'm not here missing you
I try to convince myself that I don't miss you
And i'm building up a wall
I am creating a barrier to protect my heart
So my heart can't get to you
To prevent myself from feeling the pain of missing you
But nobody knows, no
No one is aware of the true emotions I am hiding
Sometimes
At times
There's tears on my pillow
I cry myself to sleep
'Cause i can't forget you
Because I can't erase you from my thoughts
Sometimes
At times
I lie to myself but my heart still remembers
I deceive myself, but my heart still holds onto the memories
I fool myself and i fight it
I pretend to be unaffected and resist my feelings
I push it away and deny it
I try to suppress and deny my emotions
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows
No one understands the pain I'm going through
No one ever could
No one else could
Love me good, hurt me bad
Love me deeply, but also cause me pain
Like you did, oh no
Just like you did, oh no
I don't wanna know where you go
I don't want to know about your whereabouts
Who you are or who you're with
I don't care about your current life or relationships
But when i hear your name
However, whenever I hear your name
All the walls fall around me
All my defenses crumble
′Cause it brings back all the pain
Because it reminds me of all the hurt
And the waves nearly drown me
And the overwhelming emotions almost consume me
Sometimes
At times
Tears on my pillow
I cry myself to sleep
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (oh, nobody)
No one truly understands the depth of my sadness
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (no)
No one is aware of my inner turmoil
Sometimes there's tears on my pillow
At times, I find myself crying alone
I fool myself and i fight it
I deceive myself and resist
I push it away and deny it
I try to suppress and ignore it
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (nobody knows)
No one truly understands my struggles
No, no, no, no, no, nobody knows (nobody knows)
No one really knows the pain I'm experiencing
Writer(s): Al Lewis, Sylvester Bradford
Contributed by Maya E. Suggest a correction in the comments below.