Rainbow Road
Swim Gustavo! Lyrics

Why am I afraid
Questioning the source of one's own fear

Letting you go
The act of setting someone free

(Shivering up my spine)
Physical reaction of fear

(Cold touch is so haunting)
Memories of a relationship lingering like a chill

(This is my goodbye)
Formal farewell

(When I walk away, please don't follow me)
Asking for space and respect of boundaries

Is it raining where you are
Expressing concern for someone's well-being

(I secretly pray that you're ok)
Private hope for the other's safety

Cause I'm drowning over here
Feeling overwhelmed and hopeless

When you look up to the sun
The assumption that the other is living life and moving forward

Feel warmth through my fears
Accepting comfort from the thought of another's happiness

I never got to asking you
Missed opportunity for communication

How distance breaks your shell
Observation that distance can change a person

(Hey)
Casual interjection

The only comfort that I have
Finding solace in a difficult situation

With 2000 miles
Geographical distance between individuals

Is we're both alone
Shared experience of loneliness

And I'm on my way home
Hope for future reunion

(Twists and turns with no thought I'll make it back to you
Uncertainty about the future, but hope for a positive outcome

I scream to God as I breach through the storm
Struggle and hardship in the journey home

I'm holding out for the sake of my humanity
Enduring difficulties for personal growth

Can you reciprocate the feeling
Questioning whether the other person feels the same way

Waiting on your answer for days
Anxiety and anticipation about a response

All the Grey never seems to settle
Unresolved emotions and confusion

Letters stay lost
Miscommunication or lack of communication

Or sold like scraps of metal
Disregard or lack of meaning to the other person

I'll raise the point
Bringing up a significant issue

(it means more than you know)
Emphasizing the importance of the issue

It's beyond sentimental
Emotionally meaningful

Toe tagged
Metaphor for death or detachment

Jane doe scares me a little
Fear of losing one's identity and significance

Now is it worth it (Are you worth it)
Questioning the value of a relationship

To wait (for me)
Asking for patience and understanding

For me (to wait)
Acknowledging the other's decision to wait

In the position of pain
Experiencing emotional distress

But sure what can I do
Inability to change a difficult situation

Morality will ask the question am I good for you
Wondering about one's own value and impact on someone else

Whether it's heaven or hell my choice is always you
Commitment to the other person despite potential consequences

And I'll say fuck it to the pain I'm down for your abuse
Willingness to endure hardship for the sake of love

I miss your conversation piece and all the laughs we had
Nostalgia for past happy memories

Even if it was short and all up in my head
Acknowledging that the relationship may have been imagined or brief

But fuck my feelings
Dismissing one's own emotions as unimportant

My inner demons will push me on
Striving to overcome personal struggles

So when this song ends Ima stay sad and drunk
Turning to unhealthy coping mechanisms

So young miss villainous
Reference to the other person

Tell me how you feel
Inviting communication and emotional honesty

Were you the song in my head or were you fucking real
Questioning the authenticity of a relationship

Bitter feelings cause I'm left thinking I'm worthless
Negative self-perception due to emotional pain

I mean I know I am I just wish it hurt less
Desire for emotional relief

(Lately my days blue)
Feeling sad and unmotivated

And I always think of you
Other person is constantly on one's mind

(And your answer's always grey)
Feeling uncertain about the other person's feelings or response

Because you never fucking say
Frustration with lack of communication from the other person