Trauma
Synap-6 Lyrics

Every day is a good day to renew your trauma
Each day provides an opportunity to relive and revisit your painful past experiences.

Get caught up in some new drama
Getting involved in other people's problems and conflicts to distract yourself from your own issues.

Become an expert in everyone's problems
Investing time and energy in understanding and analyzing other people's issues and challenges.

Knowing damn well you will never solve a single one
Being fully aware that despite your understanding, you are incapable of resolving any of the problems you encounter.

You start every morning the same way
Your daily routine begins with a predictable pattern.

Pick up your phone and scroll the day away
Mindlessly scrolling through your phone, wasting time without any productive outcome.

Before you know, it's half past noon
Time passes quickly, and without noticing, a significant portion of the day has already elapsed.

And you're praying Apocalypse will come soon
Wishing for a catastrophic event or the end of the world as a means to escape your current struggles.

It's no wonder you have so much trouble trying to leave the house
Understandably, you face difficulties and resistance when attempting to venture outside your comfort zone or home.

You've spent the last couple of months in the basement
For an extended period, you have isolated yourself in the confines of your basement, avoiding the outside world.

Trying to remember where the 'good old days' went
Struggling to recall and long for the past times when life seemed better and more enjoyable.

But today will be different
However, today holds the potential for a change and a departure from your usual routine.

Today you will seize it - today you will pick up the pieces
Today, you will take control of your life and work towards rebuilding and healing from your past trauma.

You're gonna pick up some groceries
One of the steps you will take towards progress is getting groceries, taking care of your basic needs.

And maybe call your mother, to tell her you love her
Considering reaching out to your mother and expressing your affection towards her, perhaps recognizing the importance of nurturing relationships.

(Maybe for the last time...?)
Hinting at the possibility that this interaction with your mother may carry more weight or significance due to uncertain circumstances.

Okay, okay, okay, try to remember your exercise...
Reminding yourself to recall and implement the techniques or practices you have learned to manage your emotions and cope with challenges.

Take a deep breath
Engage in a moment of deep inhalation, often used as a calming technique and to regain focus.

Try to forget everyone's got eyes
Attempt to disregard the fact that others may be observing and judging you, freeing yourself from self-consciousness.

What you don't realize is
However, what you fail to recognize or acknowledge is...

You're invisible, just as intended
You feel unseen and inconspicuous, aligning with your deliberate desire to remain unnoticed.

And nobody knows what you're thinking
Others are unaware of your thoughts and inner turmoil, unable to comprehend your struggles.

Nobody knows what you're feeling
Your emotions and internal state remain hidden, masked from those around you.

Anyone could be concealing
Every individual you encounter may also be hiding their own emotions and concealing their true selves.

While you're concealing your feelings, someone's concealing a weapon
As you hide your emotions, someone else might be hiding a potentially dangerous object or intent.

So always have eyes on the exit, otherwise you could be next
Maintain constant awareness of escape routes or potential dangers, as remaining unaware might put you at risk.

Triggered by colors
Emotionally affected or reminded of past trauma by specific colors.

That one certain smell
A particular scent that serves as a trigger for distressing memories and experiences.

Is all that it takes to send you back to that empty hell
A single sensory cue can transport you mentally and emotionally back to a state of profound emptiness and suffering.

I wanna be a good person
Desiring to embody a morally upright and virtuous character.

But I'm hurting
However, internal pain and emotional distress are hindering your ability to fully realize and achieve your ideal self.

Every day keeps getting worse
The progression of time brings worsening circumstances and increased difficulties, exacerbating your suffering.

And nothing's for certain
Uncertainty permeates your life, preventing any guarantees or assurances.

I'm fighting the urge to cut the curtains
Engaging in a struggle against the temptation to self-destructively harm oneself as a means of coping with distress.