Growing up in Hackney, East London, but now residing along the scenic canals of Amsterdam, Szjerdene has been quietly honing her luscious take on the craft for the past few years, turning heads around the globe with her magical, ethereal voice. With Szjerdene’s first official EP landing on Ninja Tune in 2013, vocal and writing credits on Bonobo’s latest album ‘The North Borders’ followed along with a mammoth tour comprising 175 headline dates and festivals. A more recent collaboration with Lapalux on Brainfeeder came earlier this year. Now dropping a set of exquisite solo cuts one by one over the course of the summer, each representing a story from the corner of her mind, ‘Find Me’ is the second heavenly slice of Szjerdene’s seductive reverie.
Faded
Szjerdene Lyrics
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I can't see clearer
In fear on decline
I take one step nearer
You can say you love me
That I know
But If I run away
Don't read my eyes
I've trained them to hide the truth
I won't deny
It's not me its you
Too late
Forever's not too far
I faded away
So you won't break my heart
Erase and rewind
Take me back to better views
Into the night
A shadow, a former you
Fool me once
Then well done you struck gold
But you won't fool me twice 'cause baby
I will know
Too late
Forever's not too far
I faded away
So you won't break my heart
Faded, faded from your loving, faded
The song "Faded" by Szjerdene is a soulful and contemplative piece that explores relationships, love, and the need for clarity. The first verse "Show me a sign / I can't see clearer / In fear on decline / I take one step nearer" suggests that the singer is seeking some sort of guidance or insight into their situation. They feel lost and uncertain, perhaps afraid of what the future holds. Despite this, they continue to move forward, step by step, hoping that their path will become clearer with time.
The second verse "Don't read my eyes / I've trained them to hide the truth / I won't deny / It's not me its you" suggests that the singer has learned to hide their true feelings or intentions from those around them. They have become skilled at withholding information, perhaps in an attempt to protect themselves from potential heartbreak or disappointment. They acknowledge that the issue at hand is not entirely their fault but the fault of the other person involved in their relationship.
The chorus "Too late / Forever's not too far / I faded away / So you won't break my heart" suggests that the singer has reached a point where they have lost hope in the future of their relationship. They feel as though they have grown apart from the other person and the chances of them coming back together are low. In an effort to protect themselves from being hurt again, they have "faded away" from the relationship.
The final verse "Erase and rewind / Take me back to better views / Into the night / A shadow, a former you" suggests that the singer is reflecting on the past and wishing they could go back to a time where things were better between them and the other person. They feel as though they are now a shadow of their former self, and the other person may have changed too.
Line by Line Meaning
Show me a sign
I need some indication of what's going on, I'm feeling lost and uncertain.
I can't see clearer
Things are unclear and hazy, making it harder for me to navigate through life.
In fear on decline
I'm slowly losing my grip on things and I'm scared of what's to come.
I take one step nearer
Despite my fear and uncertainty, I'm moving forward, slowly but surely.
You can say you love me
You tell me that you love me, but I need more than just words to believe it's true.
That I know
I understand that you have feelings for me, but we need to work through our issues to make it work.
But If I run away
If things get too difficult, I might have to leave.
Then darling let me go
If that's the case, please don't try to stop me or make me feel guilty about it.
Don't read my eyes
I don't want you to know what I'm truly feeling or thinking, so please don't try to read my emotions from my eyes.
I've trained them to hide the truth
I've become really good at concealing my emotions and thoughts from others.
I won't deny
I can't deny that there are issues between us that need to be addressed.
It's not me its you
I'm not the only one at fault here, you need to take responsibility for your actions too.
Too late
It's too late to fix some of the damage that's been done.
Forever's not too far
Despite everything, I still have hope that we can work things out and make things last.
I faded away
I'm distancing myself from you emotionally to avoid getting hurt.
So you won't break my heart
I'm trying my best to protect myself from getting hurt by you again.
Erase and rewind
I want to go back to a time when things were better between us, before things fell apart.
Take me back to better views
I want things to go back to how they were before, when we were happy and in love.
Into the night
I'm feeling lost and alone, and the darkness seems comforting somehow.
A shadow, a former you
You've changed so much that I don't recognize you anymore, and it's breaking my heart.
Fool me once
You've already deceived me before.
Then well done you struck gold
Congratulations, you've succeeded in fooling me before, but it won't work again.
But you won't fool me twice 'cause baby
I've learned from my past mistakes and won't let myself be deceived by you again.
I will know
I'm more discerning and cautious now, and won't let you pull the wool over my eyes anymore.
Faded, faded from your loving, faded
I'm slowly fading away from your love and affection, and it hurts me deeply.
Contributed by Thomas K. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
No42 Arak-St-floor 4
Anything you do is flawless!
Thank you Szjerdene for treating my depression & anxiety!
Beyonce, Spears or similar minus C. Aguliera, Aaliyah (RIP), Teena Marie (RIP) are no match😊
Ondra Málek
Awesome!! Love it :)
Jevon Wason
Lovely as always, just perfect
Raverconvict
Beautiful music......
Deb Finch
luv her Awesome music
Tim Rodgers
Love night driving to this
Leslie Harlan
Beautiful
ilshat karimov
fantastic
hokulealinda
WOW !!! XOxoxoxo
László Kécskefalvi
WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN