All By Myself
T.C.I. Lyrics
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It's time to pick your poison, death ain't all that it seems
Your feelings aren't a virtue, this feeling's ecstasy
I can't be gotten rid of, You're just my enemy
It's just a looking glass to peer into my worst intentions
You're not afraid of me but after this I bet you will be
A monster in the making useless as I try to scream
Don't mind me as I sink further into madness
The cure is one that I don't see ever could end this
A reflection I beckon with nothings that I sung with
I did it all to myself and I can't ignore it
I've cut myself and punched the walls more than a hundred times
You need more than that to try and get back this mind
I've written songs and talked with friends but i've never been fine
Your sadness fills my ego I'll make you break this time
Those tears, I feel them, they're filling up my cup
If God was real I would never be where I have ended up
I keep my mind this way fighting only hurts me more
Then keep on crying it allows me to keep you, my whore
Don't mind me as I sink further into madness
The cure is one that I don't see ever could end this
A reflection I beckon with nothings that I sung with
I did it all to myself and I can't ignore it
Inside, it's ugly; outside, it's bloody
I can, not be, the way that I have made me
You hold, me in, forsaken you make it seem
Inside, where I'll be, outside, just like me
Don't mind me as I sink further into madness
The cure is one that I don't see ever could end this
A reflection I beckon with nothings that I sung with
I did it all to myself and I can't ignore it
I still can't see the difference between you and me
After all is said and done, you're what I make you to be
The lyrics of T.C.I.'s song All By Myself explore themes of mental illness, self-destructive behavior, and the desire for control. The artist communicates a sense of despair and hopelessness throughout the song, as they describe feeling trapped within their own mind and unable to escape their struggles. The opening lines, "You think it's made of thin air, you think it all a dream / It's time to pick your poison, death ain't all that it seems" suggest that the artist is aware of the severity of their condition and that they feel powerless to do anything about it.
In the following lines, the artist dismisses the idea that their emotions are a virtue and suggests that their current state of being brings them a kind of perverse pleasure, "Your feelings aren't a virtue, this feeling's ecstasy / I can't be gotten rid of, You're just my enemy." By personifying their illness as an enemy, the artist seems to be acknowledging the perverse pleasure that they derive from their self-destructive behavior.
Throughout the rest of the song, the artist describes the ways in which they have tried to cope with their struggles, from cutting themselves and punching walls to writing music and talking with friends, but they always come back to the same place: feeling trapped, hopeless, and ultimately in control of their own fate.
Line by Line Meaning
You think it's made of thin air, you think it all a dream
You don't understand the reality of my situation, you think it's all in my head
It's time to pick your poison, death ain't all that it seems
You have to choose how you want to suffer, death is not the only option
Your feelings aren't a virtue, this feeling's ecstasy
Your emotions don't make you a better person, this pain makes me feel alive
I can't be gotten rid of, You're just my enemy
You can't get rid of me, you are the only one I have left to torment
It's just a looking glass to peer into my worst intentions
This is just a glimpse into my darkest thoughts
You're not afraid of me but after this I bet you will be
You're not scared of me now, but you will be after I'm done with you
A monster in the making useless as I try to scream
I am becoming a monster and my cries for help are useless
You better listen to me I am more than an infection
You should pay attention to me, I am more than just a problem to be solved
I've cut myself and punched the walls more than a hundred times
I have hurt myself over and over again
You need more than that to try and get back this mind
You can't fix my mental state with a simple gesture
Your sadness fills my ego I'll make you break this time
I gain satisfaction from your sorrow and I will push you to your breaking point
Those tears, I feel them, they're filling up my cup
I am taking delight in your tears, they are filling me up
If God was real I would never be where I have ended up
If there was a higher power, I wouldn't be in this position
I keep my mind this way fighting only hurts me more
I choose to keep my mind in this state and the struggle to change only causes more pain
Then keep on crying it allows me to keep you, my whore
Your tears give me power over you
Inside, it's ugly; outside, it's bloody
On the inside I am a mess, on the outside I am hurting myself
I can, not be, the way that I have made me
I can't change who I am, I am the result of my own actions
You hold, me in, forsaken you make it seem
You keep me trapped, making me feel abandoned
Inside, where I'll be, outside, just like me
On the inside I will always be this way, and on the outside I will look like this
I still can't see the difference between you and me
I see no distinction between you and me
After all is said and done, you're what I make you to be
In the end, you are only what I have made you to be
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Written by: Chase Allen
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