Wheels
T.S.O. Lyrics
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And I don't know how to feel
Every time i say your name it just don't feel real
Hey man whats real?
You could always say
Read social cues just like the passing days
Really who's to blame
When i feel the shame?
But you took your life away
Why'd you go away?
You would of been my best man
Now your just my dead friend
No one comes to visit your grave
And thats a fucking shame
No one says your fuck'n name
So at least I hope you saw the wheels
I still see the bed where you used to sleep
The faces of my memories still see me
The blood was dried from a few days before
But the stains on the walls
and the bed and the floor
Burn through my memory
They're choking my empathy
They'll be the end of me
If it doesn't happen chemically
The room was cold like no one had ever lived there
It felt empty, hollow and bare
Memories of how it used to be
Using me, every time i go sleep I hear your fuck'n eulogy
And thats life for me, stealing strangers empathy
Stealing anything that will fill the hole you left in me
But I still want you around
And I Still want you turning up
But I'll never be back in town
So I guess that makes two of us
In T.S.O.'s song "Wheels," the lyrics explore the aftermath of a friend's tragic suicide. The singer reflects on their feelings of confusion and emptiness, struggling with the reality of their friend's absence. The song captures the complexity of grief and the lingering impact it has on the singer's life.
The lyrics open with a sense of time passing, as the singer acknowledges that it has been five years since their friend's death. However, despite this passage of time, they confess that they still don't know how to truly process their emotions. The mention of saying their friend's name and it not feeling real underlines the disconnect and difficulty in accepting the reality of their friend's absence.
The line "Hey man, what's real?" suggests a pondering of existential questions and the search for answers in the face of such loss. The singer reminisces about their friend's ability to read social cues, almost implying that their friend might have been able to understand the pain they were going through. They question who is to blame for the friend's suicide, ultimately expressing their own feelings of guilt and shame.
The second part of the song delves deeper into the singer's struggle with memories and trauma associated with their friend's suicide. The vivid descriptions of the blood stains on the walls, bed, and floor reveal the lasting impact of the event on their psyche. The mention of the stains "burning through" their memory highlights the intrusive and haunting nature of these images.
The room where the friend used to live is described as cold, empty, and hollow. It emphasizes the void that their absence has created in the singer's life. The mention of hearing their friend's eulogy every time they go to sleep demonstrates the persistent presence of grief and the difficulty in finding closure.
The song concludes with a bittersweet realization that the friend will never return, and the singer accepts that they will never be back in town either. This final line underscores the sense of shared loss, as both the friend and the singer exist in a state of permanent absence.
Line by Line Meaning
Its been five years
It has been a significant amount of time since the event
And I don't know how to feel
I am unable to determine my emotional state
Every time i say your name it just don't feel real
Whenever I mention your name, it doesn't feel genuine
Hey man whats real?
I wonder what truth or reality really is
You could always say
You had the ability to verbalize thoughts
Read social cues just like the passing days
You were able to understand social cues as easily as the days passed
Really who's to blame
Who can be held responsible for the situation?
When i feel the shame?
I experience guilt or embarrassment
Thought we did our part
I believed that we fulfilled our obligations
But you took your life away
However, you chose to end your own life
Why'd you go away?
What caused you to leave?
You would of been my best man
You could have been the most important person in my life
Now your just my dead friend
Now you are only someone I mourn
No one comes to visit your grave
No one takes the effort to pay their respects at your burial site
And thats a fucking shame
And that is an unfortunate and regrettable situation
No one says your fuck'n name
No one mentions your name with emphasis and acknowledgment
So at least I hope you saw the wheels
But I hope you witnessed the consequences or aftermath of your actions
I still see the bed where you used to sleep
I can still visualize the place where you used to rest
The faces of my memories still see me
The images of our shared experiences still haunt me
The blood was dried from a few days before
The bloodstains had already dried from a few days earlier
But the stains on the walls and the bed and the floor
However, the marks on the walls, bed, and floor are still visible
Burn through my memory
They deeply etch into my recollection
They're choking my empathy
They are suffocating my ability to understand and share emotions
They'll be the end of me
They will be my downfall
If it doesn't happen chemically
Unless something happens through chemical means, such as self-destruction
The room was cold like no one had ever lived there
The room felt devoid of life, as if no one had ever inhabited it
It felt empty, hollow and bare
It had a sense of vacancy, hollowness, and vulnerability
Memories of how it used to be
Recollections of how the environment was in the past
Using me, every time i go sleep I hear your fuck'n eulogy
Manipulating my thoughts, every time I try to sleep, I hear your eulogy filled with intensity
And thats life for me, stealing strangers empathy
And that is my existence, where I try to obtain sympathy from unfamiliar individuals
Stealing anything that will fill the hole you left in me
Taking anything that may alleviate the void you created within me
But I still want you around
Nevertheless, I still desire your presence
And I still want you turning up
And I still yearn for your energetic and lively presence
But I'll never be back in town
However, I will never return to the same location as you
So I guess that makes two of us
Therefore, it seems that both of us are in a similar situation
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Written by: Bryce Yelle
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