Hollywood
T. Mills Lyrics

I had to get out of Hollywood
The artist needed to distance himself from the negative influence and superficiality of Hollywood.

Get back to the trenches, they said they need me
The artist returned to his roots, where he felt he was needed by his community.

Uh, I used to cop my little reggie tryna feed myself
The artist used to buy cheap marijuana to sustain himself.

My cousin had that work but I didn't need no help
Although his cousin sold drugs, the artist didn't rely on him for financial support.

Man I was so fucked up I couldn't believe myself
The artist was in a bad enough place that he struggled to accept the reality of it.

That's why I be at the jeweler tryna freeze myself
The artist tries to cover up his pain and insecurities by buying expensive jewelry.

'Cause my heart so cold, we ain't got no goals
The artist and his peers lack direction in their lives and are emotionally distant.

All these young niggas killin' like they ain't got no souls
The artist observes the violence and lack of empathy among his peers.

Talkin' Grand Marquis, before I cop my Rolls
The artist used to aspire to a Grand Marquis before changing his goals to acquire a Rolls Royce.

It was all so sweet until Dashawn told
The artist's perception of the world changed when he received bad news from someone named Dashawn.

Really hurt my heart, ripped my feelings apart
The artist was emotionally impacted by the news he received from Dashawn.

Out in Philly it's dark, we was really so scarred
The artist comes from a rough environment in Philadelphia that left him with emotional scars.

But actin' silly so hard but we just wanted some love
The artist and his peers acted tough, but ultimately just wanted emotional support and validation.

Mama workin', daddy dead, I just wanted a hug
The artist craved love and affection from his parents, but was left without his father and a working mother.

Why you think we spillin' Spade when we go to the club
The artist and his friends drink to cope with their problems.

All my homies think I smoke, we just rollin' it up
The artist clarifies that he and his friends don't actually smoke, but indulge in other vices.

I'm stressed out, niggas got Jordans, feel left out
The artist feels left behind and inferior to his peers who can afford expensive Jordan shoes.

So I went to chasin' them birdies, I went south, fuck it
The artist turned to illegal activities for financial gain, despite the risks.

Said I would win, they said I would lose, shit
People doubted the artist's ability to succeed.

We're so confused, hope I don't make the news, oh Lord
The artist and his peers are unsure of their path and hope to avoid negative consequences.

We was breakin' the rules, trappin' to get some food
The artist and his peers resorted to drug dealing to make money and survive.

Risking freedom for shoes
The artist and his peers were willing to go to jail for items like expensive shoes.

Knowin' that I don't need em, I'm spending money on jewels
Although the artist doesn't need expensive jewelry, he spends money on it to impress others and feel better about himself.

Caught my first case, it was me versus the state
The artist was arrested and had to face charges against the state.

Came up from shit I'm like "how can you hate"
Despite his struggles, the artist doesn't understand why people would hate on him.

I'm just tryna be great, I survived with the snakes
The artist wants to achieve greatness despite facing difficult obstacles and people who would betray him.

Look what they did to Lil' Kodak and Gates'
The artist references the legal cases and troubles of rapper Kodak Black and Kevin Gates.

I can't lose faith, I just want shine like the stars in my Wraith
Despite his setbacks, the artist wants to succeed and be successful like the stars he admires.

We go to war in fatigues like it's Bape
The artist and his peers dress in Bape camouflage clothing, as if they are ready for war.

I don't feel safe, can't sleep without it
The artist doesn't feel secure and needs something with him at all times in order to feel safe.

Master with them P's yeah boy I'm 'bout it 'bout it
The artist is skilled at selling drugs and is committed to the lifestyle.

Brought me to my knees back when everybody doubted
The artist faced rejection and doubt from others, but has managed to come out stronger because of it.

Can't let my youngins see me fold, I'm too solid
The artist wants to set a good example for the younger generation and won't give up in the face of adversity.

If I stand on it, I'ma stand on it
The artist is committed to his actions and stands by them.

Put some bags on the scale, put some grams on it
The artist uses a scale to weigh bags of drugs and is selling them by the gram.

This the only shit I knew I seen my man done it
Selling drugs is the only way the artist knows to make money, as his friends have done it before him.

Tryna be like niggas who were never there for us
The artist and his peers try to follow the examples of people who weren't good role models and didn't support them.

Ain't nobody hear us, so we ain't have no choice
The artist and his peers felt unheard and neglected, leaving them with limited options for survival.