Amnesia
Tay Watts feat. Corey Gray Lyrics

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
As I drove by the familiar locations where we spent countless drunken nights, I couldn't help but think of you.

I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
In addition to those locations, I remembered how our lips met during our final moments together and the way your mouth felt against mine.

And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
Although your friends swear that you're doing well without me, I can't help but wonder if that's actually the case.

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
Do you ever experience feelings of isolation despite having someone else by your side?

When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Whenever he says something hurtful, do you remember the kind words I wrote to you in the past?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
Occasionally, I question the authenticity of our relationship and if it was valid or not.

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
If our love was genuine, then how can you claim to be content without me?

'Cause I'm not fine at all
I'm not okay without you - not even close.

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I recall the day when you informed me of your departure.

I remember the make-up running down your face
I also remember the tears you shed as your eyeliner ran down your cheeks.

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
You abandoned the aspirations we shared together without a second thought.

Like every single wish we ever made
You even forgot about each and every wish we hoped would come true.

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
I yearn to forget about every aspect of our relationship and its aftermath.

And forget about the stupid little things
I wish to forget even the small things that remind me of you.

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
One such small thing is the feeling of comfort I received while resting by your side.

And the memories I never can escape
All the memories that continue to haunt me no matter how hard I try to forget them.

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
Although my friends tell me to delete them, I can't help but keep the pictures of you on my phone.

I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
I must admit that looking at those pictures make me feel less alone, even if it leaves me with a hollow feeling inside.

And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
None of my friends can seem to understand why I've been avoiding them.

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
Knowing you've found happiness without me is a source of immense pain and sadness.

It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
Just hearing your name mentioned when it's been so long since I've seen you is difficult to bear.

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
Sometimes it feels as if our relationship never existed, as if all of it was just a fabrication.

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
If our love was honest, then how could you be truly happy without me in your life?

'Cause I'm not fine at all
I'm not doing okay in any sense - not now or anytime soon.

If today I woke up with you right beside me
If by divine intervention, I were to wake up with you next to me just once more...

Like all of this was just some twisted dream
...I would think it was all just a twisted dream.

I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
But I'd also embrace you with a greater intensity than our previous embraces.

And you'd never slip away
I would do everything in my power to ensure that you never leave my side again.

And you'd never hear me say
I would never let you hear the words or experience the feelings that caused our separation.

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
Recalling the moment you told me the news of your departure.

I remember the make-up running down your face
I can vividly imagine and recall the sight of your mascara streaming down your cheeks.

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
All the dreams and goals we shared that you've abandoned and no longer need.

Like every single wish we ever made
It feels as if every wish we ever hoped for has been crushed and forgotten.

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
Once more, I long to forget everything that's been lost and left behind.

And forget about the stupid little things
Even the smallest things that remind me of you weigh me down with pain and heartache.

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
The way it felt to drift off at night with you next to me is one such reminder.

And the memories I never can escape
All the memories that leave me with feelings of longing and emptiness, no matter where I go.

'Cause I'm not fine at all
At the end of the day, I know that I'm not okay and that time may be the only true remedy.

No, I'm really not fine at all
No - I am far from being fine or okay.

Tell me this is just a dream
Sometimes, I pray that this is all just a terrible nightmare from which I'll soon wake up.

'Cause I'm really not fine at all
However, deep down, I know that my sorrow and heartbreak are very much reality.