B.I.B.
Tech N9ne Lyrics

How much of the trauma did mama get, ay?
What extent of the emotional pain did my mother endure?

Way up to the highest level that drama gets, ay
To the point where the intensity of the situation reached its peak

To the pain of my mother's heartache was on a display
The suffering experienced by my mother was evident for all to see

I don't want a sick day to my mama's dismay, ay
I don't want to be absent when my mother needs me, causing her disappointment

Thinking of all of it
Reflecting on the entirety of the situation

I never wanted a part of it
I never desired to be involved in that painful experience

Remember I wanted to let go
I wished to release myself from it

When smoking, I managed to get low
By smoking, I found a way to escape and temporarily numb the pain

It coulda been worse like when I was talking to homies
The situation could have been even more difficult, like the times I conversed with friends

When the cellular phone up on death row
Referring to the times I communicated with friends while facing serious consequences

When I never had to serve a stretch so
I never had to experience a lengthy prison sentence

I can still say 'but I'm blessed though'
Despite the challenges, I can acknowledge that I am fortunate

But why did I have to hear mama getting beat
Why was I subjected to the sounds of my mother being physically abused?

In third grade, so I couldn't really give him missing teeth
During my time in third grade, I wasn't able to confront the abuser physically

But I knew from grandma that what you sow you're gonna freaking reap
My grandmother taught me that the negative actions one commits will eventually result in consequences

So he robbed a bank and got about 30 years in the pen' for the mission, peace
He committed a bank robbery and received a prison sentence of approximately 30 years as a consequence

Blessed to get away
I was fortunate to escape that harmful environment

But stressed to this day
However, I still carry the burden of stress from those past experiences

When checks hit a nay
When financial resources become scarce

No money, depressed and it's grey
Being financially unstable leads to depression and a sense of bleakness

But the family didn't stutter to pull her and the kid inside their homes
The family quickly welcomed my mother and me into their homes without hesitation

Sometimes it was butter and sugar sandwiches
At times, our meals consisted of simple bread with butter and sugar

Graduated to healthy niggas
We progressed to having nourishing meals

Try'na protect this investment
We were striving to safeguard this valuable opportunity and improve our lives

Moving like stealthy figures
We moved discreetly and cautiously to avoid drawing unwanted attention

All that poverty and pain it really helped me give a damn
The experience of poverty and suffering instilled in me a strong sense of empathy and concern

It dealt me this killer jam, now wealthy I'm living grand
The struggles presented me with this impactful song, and now I live a prosperous and magnificent life

Still I felt these shivers
However, I still experienced moments of unease and fear

And the cold nights living through all these stressors
Enduring the challenging and mentally taxing situations during cold nights

I'm feeling like I had a lifelong baby bib to protect me from messes
I feel as though I had a protective shield throughout my entire life to shield me from difficulties

Around my neck so I'm safe as far as threats go
With this figurative bib around my neck, I feel secure and protected from potential harm

From the last row to the best flow
From being in a disadvantaged position to now having the best artistic ability

I can now say that I'm blessed though
At this point, I can confidently declare that I am indeed blessed

All of these things that get me down
The various hardships and challenges that bring me down

I know there's gotta be an upside, now
I firmly believe that there is a positive aspect or outcome to be found

Found somewhere, yeah
Discovered or located in some way, yes

If I can't pick my face up off the ground
If I can't lift myself from this state of despair

And I don't know what's next
When I'm unsure of what lies ahead

I holler 'but I'm blessed'
I proclaim that I am still grateful and favored

I know it's gotta be an upside down
I am certain that there is an alternative perspective or opportunity

Found somewhere, yeah
Discovered or located in some way, yes

If I can't pick my face up off the ground
If I can't lift myself from this state of despair

And I don't know what's next
When I'm unsure of what lies ahead

I'm hollow, but I'm blessed, yeah
I may feel empty inside, but I still acknowledge my blessings

Under pressure
Feeling the weight of expectations and demands

Feel like God
Experiencing immense power or authority

No discussion when I pull that card
No need for debate or negotiation when I assert my authority

Until I see different
Unless circumstances change or I come across new information

I know what I know
I am certain about my knowledge and beliefs

Under pressure
Feeling the weight of expectations and demands

Feel like God
Experiencing immense power or authority

No discussion when I pull that card
No need for debate or negotiation when I assert my authority

Until I see different
Unless circumstances change or I come across new information

I know what I know
I am certain about my knowledge and beliefs