My Song
Tee-N-Tee Lyrics

I wish that I could hate you
I long to feel hatred towards you

Cause it'd be easier to move on
Because it would facilitate my process of moving forward

I swear that this is the 1000th song
I sincerely believe that this is the thousandth composition

Where you're the one I've written upon
Where you are the main subject of my writing

How many more songs do I have to write
What is the total number of additional songs I must compose

Till your completely off my mind
Until you are completely out of my thoughts

My heart can't take this anymore
My emotional well-being can no longer endure this situation

I'm sick and tired and oh so bored
I am both physically and mentally exhausted, and extremely uninterested

Sick and tired and oh so bored
Exhausted and disinterested

Sick and tired
Exhausted and worn out

The time we had feels like a dream
The period we spent together appears unreal

Did you say things you really mean
Were the statements you made genuine

You said you needed to work on you
You expressed the need for self-improvement

Then proceeded to be with someone new
Yet you subsequently engaged in a relationship with another individual

And even if it's just friendship
Even if it is solely a platonic bond

You still chose them over me
You still prioritized them above me

Yea even if it's just friendship
Indeed, even if it is merely friendship

It was looking so sketchy baby
It seemed dubious and questionable, my dear

And now I'm left here with a broken heart
And now I find myself with a heart shattered into pieces

And I don't know who or what I've lost
And I am uncertain about the person or thing that I have forfeited

I'm so confused on what's happening
I am extremely perplexed about the current situation

But now I'm fine with everything
However, at present, I am content with the circumstances

Don't even seem to have cared about me
I do not perceive any indication of concern for me

Definitely not something I could foresee
Certainly not an occurrence I could have anticipated

I felt stuck in that place you left
I felt trapped in the spot you departed from

But now I'm not so fucking stressed
But now I am not as intensely overwhelmed with anxiety

So fucking stressed
Experiencing immense anxiety

I couldn't rest
I was unable to find peace

And I felt like a mess
And I felt disorganized and chaotic

So fucking stressed
Experiencing tremendous anxiety

And now that I've unfollowed you
And now that I have stopped following you on social media

I know I can't take back all that you threw away
I recognize that I cannot reclaim everything that you discarded

But maybe it's better that way
However, perhaps it is advantageous in that manner

To exist with a clean slate
To live with a fresh start and no lingering baggage

And you said that you'd come around one day
And you stated that you would eventually change your perspective

But I can't wait
However, I am unable to be patient any longer

No I won't stay
No, I will not remain in this situation

To be yours only when you feel okay
To be exclusively yours solely when you are in a positive state of mind

So goodbye I know I said a lot
So farewell, I am aware that I expressed numerous sentiments

And I don't want to put you in this spot but
And I do not wish to place you in this predicament but

Hey my feelings are valid too
Hey, my emotions are equally legitimate

I got to let them out cause our times due
I must express them because it is the appropriate time

And someday I'll meet someone new
And eventually, I will encounter a new individual

And get back all the roses I gave you
And retrieve all the flowers that I gifted to you

They'll give me all the things you never could
They will provide me with everything that you were incapable of

They'll understand that I deserve to be treated good
They will comprehend that I am worthy of being treated well

I deserve
I am deserving

To be treated good
To receive kind treatment

I never should've said 'I loved you'
Expressing 'I loved you' was an error on my part

But I was hurt I had to tell you
However, I was emotionally wounded and compelled to reveal my feelings

Cause it ended oh so soon
Because our connection concluded abruptly

And to let it out was what I had to do
And expressing my emotions was necessary for me to do

You and your two tattoos
You and the pair of tattoos you possess

And that one pair of fancy boots
And that particular set of stylish boots

Were the only things you let closest to you
Were the sole possessions you permitted to be close to you

Faking empathy is all do
Feigning empathy is all that I engage in

Now You're done
Now you are finished

Cause I've won
Because I have emerged victorious

Taken back my cup
Regained possession of my filled container

Full of love
Overflowing with affection

Wasn't this fun
Wasn't this an enjoyable experience