I Hate You
The Allisons Lyrics

I try to keep my body away
I'm attempting to distance myself physically from you

But you too me back to the fire
Despite my efforts, I am irresistibly drawn back to you and the passion between us

Yea and I burn again
Each time we connect, my desire for you is reignited and becomes overwhelming

I tried to deflect all the pain
I've attempted to avoid the emotional pain that comes with being with you

Half of my mental is going insane
The emotional toll of this relationship is affecting me deeply and driving me to madness

Emotion controlling through strains
My emotions are running rampant and making it difficult to maintain control

Chasing the life that's connected to fame
I am pursuing a life of success and fame, and my relationship with you is complicating that pursuit

Missing my family to death
I am dearly missing my family and their support while I navigate this complicated relationship

Swear the lord know I can mental this test
I believe that I am strong enough to withstand the challenges presented by this relationship

Go through the motions of being the best
I am putting forth my best effort to succeed despite the difficulties I'm facing

All preparation to get to success
Everything I'm doing is intended to lead to success in my life and career

Swear it's like I get it an go
I feel as though I have achieved success, but then something happens to pull me back down

Made a few connections even did me a show
I have made some valuable connections and even performed in a show, but it feels like it's not enough

All of these progression just to get me some doe
I am making progress in my career, but it seems like it's all just for money

Counting all my blessings while I vent through this flow
I am trying to stay positive and focus on my blessings as I express my emotions through my music

An still it's like I go crazy
Despite my efforts to stay sane, this relationship is driving me to the edge

Arms to the sky I don't get lazy
I am staying motivated and determined to succeed, even through the struggles

Praise to the high why'd I get faded
I am giving thanks to a higher power, while also questioning why things have become so difficult

If I say I got you gotta trust we make it
If I promise to be there for you, you can trust that we will make it through any challenges together

Wait
Hold on a moment

I'm spinning around to you
I am constantly drawn back to you, despite the challenges we face

I would like to say to you
I need to express something to you

I'm coming back an I'm blinded
I am returning to you, even though I know it's not necessarily the best decision

Baby since you love me again
I feel your love for me, and it is making me want to be with you again

So I got you
I am committed to being there for you and supporting you

You say that you got me let's get it
You are promising to be there for me, so let's work together to achieve our goals

Ride like you want it not like you ain't wit it
Let's approach this relationship and our goals with enthusiasm and motivation

Let y'all about pain wit no ending
We are going through a painful experience that seems to have no resolution

Losing yo child an you feel like the villain
We are experiencing the pain of a child's loss, which can make us feel like we are at fault

Our family's wishing the best
Our families are supporting us and hoping for the best in our relationship

Such a new blow to go straight through the chest
This loss has hit us hard and is affecting us deeply

Cry all alone if I need to digress
If I need to express my emotions and process my grief alone, I will do so

Not of the phone it'll cause to much stress
Talking about our grief over the phone can cause too much emotional stress

No mama can't hear her baby
My mother cannot hear me crying and expressing my emotions

Cry on the phone It could make her crazy
Crying on the phone could also be too much for my mother to handle emotionally

So far gone know my pops he hate it
My father is struggling with our loss and the complications it has brought to our family

Grind till I'm on ain't no time to waste it
I am determined to work hard and succeed, even in the face of this hardship

Mind in a mode for the path to take me
I am focused on following the right path to success

To mom wit a home an the cash is gravy
My ultimate goal is to provide for my mother and make sure she has a comfortable home and financial stability

Goals for the gold I'm a platinum baby
I am dedicated to achieving my goals and becoming successful

Time heals all an it's time to make it I'm gone
I believe that with time, I will be able to heal and move on from this pain, and I'm determined to make it happen

I can let you go when I'm through
When I am emotionally ready, I can let go of this relationship

Yea I got you
I am committed to being there for you and supporting you

Wake me up and turn the lights on
I need to wake up and face reality, even if it's difficult