Close To Me
The Cure䐀 Lyrics
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I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
Just try to see in the dark
To feel the fear before you're here
I make the shapes come much too close
I pull my eyes out
Hold my breath
And wait until I shake
But if I had your faith
Then I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream
I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought this day would end
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me
But if I had your face
Then I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door
Was a dream, was a dream
The Cure's "Close To Me" is a song about intimacy and fear of commitment. The song tells a story of a person who is waiting for love, but is unsure if they can handle the emotional baggage that comes with a romantic relationship. The persona in the song wishes for sleep, to continue existing in a dream-state, pre-commitment.
The song repeats the phrase "I've waited hours for this, I've made myself so sick," which implies that the persona has been waiting for love for some time, but is unsure if they are ready for it to come. The line "if I had your faith, then I could make it safe and clean" suggests that the persona lacks confidence in themselves and in romantic relationships. They believe that if they could trust their partner's intentions, they could make the relationship work.
The chorus of the song, "I never thought tonight could ever be this close to me," repeats the idea of the persona's fear of intimacy. The word "tonight" implies that the persona is currently in a romantic situation, but they are still uncertain if they are ready for it.
Overall, "Close To Me" is a song about the fear of committing to love, and how that fear can hold a person back from experiencing intimacy and connection.
Line by Line Meaning
I've waited hours for this
I have been eagerly waiting for this moment for hours.
I've made myself so sick
I am feeling so anxious and nervous that I have made myself physically ill.
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I regret waking up and facing the challenges of today.
I never thought this day would end
I am stuck in a moment that seems to never end.
I never thought tonight could ever be
I never expected that tonight would be like this or that things could be this intense.
This close to me
This moment is so intense and overwhelming that it feels like it's right next to me.
Just try to see in the dark
Try to see through the difficult times when it's hard to find your way.
Just try to make it work
Do your best to make things work out.
To feel the fear before you're here
Experience the fear before the event actually happens.
I make the shapes come much too close
My fear and anxiety makes everything feel too close for comfort.
I pull my eyes out
I am so terrified that I want to close my eyes and not face the situation.
Hold my breath
I am holding my breath in an attempt to calm and center myself.
And wait until I shake
I am waiting for the fear to subside and to regain control of my body and mind.
But if I had your faith
If only I had your unwavering belief and trust in the situation.
Then I could make it safe and clean
Then I would be able to handle the situation confidently and efficiently.
If only I was sure
If only I was confident and certain that everything will work out.
That my head on the door was a dream
That my worries and anxieties are just figments of my imagination.
was a dream, was a dream
I wish that everything that is causing me fear and anxiety was just a dream.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: ROBERT JAMES SMITH
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