Everything I Once Had
The Honorary Title Lyrics

Everything I once had
This song is a reflection on a past relationship that has left the singer feeling hurt and untrusting.

The bar on first Avenue, we went there solely for you
The singer went to a specific bar solely to please their partner in the relationship.

So you can flirt with my best friend
The singer's partner flirted with their best friend, causing the singer to feel betrayed and hurt.

Kiss a girl, tell me why you're laughing
The artist's partner kissed another person, causing the artist to feel hurt and confused about why their partner found it funny.

I won't hold on, I can't hold on to this
The artist acknowledges that they cannot continue in a relationship where there is no trust and they have been hurt repeatedly.

There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out
The singer feels that the trust they had established in their relationship has been broken and damaged.

In my bed for six long months
The singer refers to the time they spent in a romantic and intimate relationship with their partner before being betrayed.

Well I won't hold on, to this
The artist reiterates that they cannot continue to hold on to a relationship that has caused them so much pain and distrust.

February, Valentine's Day
The artist references Valentine's Day, which is often associated with love and romance, to contrast with the painful end of their relationship.

Did my best to avoid the red clichés
The artist tried to avoid the typical romantic gestures on Valentine's Day, but their efforts were ultimately in vain.

So you dumped me on the subway
The singer's partner broke up with them in a public and humiliating place, causing the singer to feel even more hurt and embarrassed.

On my way to work at nine in the morning
The artist was on their way to work when their partner broke up with them, causing them to feel even more vulnerable and exposed.

Everybody else is holding bouquets
The singer observes others around them receiving flowers and gifts, emphasizing their own lack of love and support in that moment.

Now I'm holding my face in the basement
The singer is in a dark and private place, where they can cry and feel the pain of their broken relationship without having to worry about being seen.

Scratching away for any trace
The singer is desperately trying to hold on to any shred of affection or love that they shared with their former partner, even though they know it is over.

Of affection you will leave
The artist knows that their partner has moved on and will leave them without any love or emotional support.

Falling victim to the public's prey
The artist feels exposed and vulnerable to the judgment of others, who may see them as weak or foolish for their pain and situation.

Anyone is suitable for you I, for you I guess tonight
The singer acknowledges that their partner is capable of moving on quickly and finding new romantic partners with ease, even though it hurts the singer to see.

You weren't fazed
The singer's former partner is unfazed by the end of their relationship and can move on without pain or regret.

It's over with
The relationship has ended, and there is no hope for reconciliation or return to the love they once shared.

You my beautiful
The artist still views their former partner as beautiful and attractive, despite the pain they have caused.

Your beautiful blue and white
The artist is referencing the blue and white clothing that their former partner wore, which is an image that still holds significance and emotion for them.