Purgatory
The L.I.F.E. Project Lyrics

Who am I
Questioning my own identity and purpose

Realistically
Being honest about myself

I'm a walking placebo
Living a life of deception, not being who I really am

I'm something I'm not evil
Not inherently bad, but pretending to be someone I'm not

What do I feel
Being unsure of my own emotions

I couldn't tell you
Being unable to communicate my emotions

Beautiful people
Referring to the people who seem happy and content with their lives

I couldn't help you
Being incapable of helping them because I am struggling myself

Just go
Advising them to move on and find happiness without me

Be happy
Wishing them well, despite my own sadness

I won't hug you down I feel
Acknowledging that my own negative emotions may bring others down

SO FUCKING ALONE
Feeling extremely isolated and lonely

You fuckers are drones
Referring to the people who conform to societal norms without question

Monotonous clones
People who are unoriginal and uninspired

But your still so
Despite their conformity, they are still beautiful and admirable

I don't deserve you
Feeling unworthy of their happiness and contentment with life

You make me nervous
Feeling anxious and uncertain around them

I'll fucking murder you
Being overwhelmed by negative emotions and feeling the urge to lash out

Shittttt
Expression of frustration

Eating donuts in the corner of a party
Isolating myself at social events

Get me hyped man don't fucking start me
Getting worked up and emotional about life

I'll yell and scream the life and soul I wanna die
Feeling overwhelmed by negative emotions to the point of wanting to die

Fuck no you don't
Questioning whether or not anyone really wants to die

Stop feeling sorry for yourself bro
Encouraging self-reflection and avoiding self-pity

Just put your shit up on the shelf now
Acknowledging that I need to focus on myself and my own issues

I'm the patron saint
Mocking myself for being unproductive and lazy

To doing nothing
Being unproductive and unmotivated

And being boring
Feeling uninteresting and unexciting

And pure whatever it's exhausting
Being indifferent and unmotivated is tiring and draining

Lonely like a baby orphan
Feeling abandoned and alone

Writing lyrics while they're dancing
Feeling out of place at social events and finding comfort in music

All this laughing is enhancing
Feeling disconnected from others because their happiness only highlights my own sadness

All this loneliness
Feeling completely isolated from others

That something feeling
Acknowledging that there is something missing in my life

You fucking weakling
Berating myself for being emotionally vulnerable

Fuck you you're nothing
Being self-destructive and feeling unworthy

You'll never be anything
Doubting my own potential and ability to succeed

Never be ready a plaything for everyone giving like Tesla will they are you're Edison
Feeling incapable of keeping up with those around me who seem successful and accomplished

Who are these people who's say that they like me
Feeling confused and skeptical of others' praise and affection

You hate me it's likely I hate myself High-key I gotta be nice
Assuming that others dislike me because I dislike myself

Please don't try patronise me well not patronise cause your being so nice to me
Being suspicious and doubtful of others' kindness

I'm a lost cause
Feeling hopeless and beyond help

I'll help you out, just cause
Offering to help others despite my own struggles

And I do this shit for a just cause
Finding purpose and meaning in helping others

And I get one hug then it's just claws
Feeling suffocated and overwhelmed by physical affection

You just seem so happy
Feeling envious of others' happiness

How could I understand
Feeling incapable of understanding their joy and contentment

I'd live in a wonderland
Longing for a life that is free of pain and negativity

If I was just normal and happy and real
Desiring a life that is less complicated, where I can be myself and find happiness

I'm burning for centuries
Feeling intense emotional pain that lasts for long periods of time

Nobodies heard of me
Feeling invisible and unrecognized

What goes ons meant to be
Questioning the meaning and purpose of life

Im prince of purgatory
Feeling stuck in a state of limbo, between pain and happiness

I rule the nothing irrelevant nothing Now burn
Feeling like I am in control, but also feeling hopeless and empty

Do your bus ride feel like a hearse
Feeling like every aspect of life is painful or negative

Do you feel surrounded alone
Feeling alone despite being around others

Do your strategies make it all worse and you're lost in the nothingness misery zone
Feeling helpless and unable to cope with life's challenges

Do I panic get shanked by the nerves when I open up so my head will rehearse em
Feeling anxious and insecure when opening up to others

I do the last bit don't know about you
Feeling disconnected from others who seem to handle vulnerability better

Pricks aren't you just the perfect edge emo bitch person
Feeling resentful towards others who seem to have it all figured out or who judge me for my emotions

Cut yourself I don't care
Feeling like no one cares about my pain or struggles

Fuck your self it's not fair your so happy together
Feeling envious and resentful of those who seem happy and content with their lives

And I'm a feather of a bird corpse on the pavement
Feeling insignificant and powerless in the grand scheme of things

Do I want to be saved or
Questioning whether or not I want to recover from my pain and sadness

Do I wanna be left to lament and pretend for so long I pretend to myself
Choosing to suffer alone rather than admitting to myself and others that I need help

To protect myself
Using isolation as a means of self-preservation

Do I wanna be brave so I wanna relate
Desiring the courage to connect with others and share my emotions

What do I gain for this goodness mistake to be kind it is fake it's a wonderful life
Questioning whether kindness is genuine or simply a facade

And it's not by the way
Denying the idea that life is wonderful or perfect

I love half the seconds that I spend alone it's people who watch me
Feeling comfortable and content when alone, but feeling judged and insecure around others

That put my iPhone in my hand so I can fake
Using social media to create a fake persona that hides my pain and struggles

Thinking about how it's sad as your drinking
Reflecting on my own sadness and struggles while others around me are seemingly carefree

While I'm still here sober
Choosing not to numb my pain with alcohol or other vices

And I'm still a loner
Feeling disconnected from others despite being around them

And I'm still alone yeah
Feeling completely isolated from others

And I'm the one saddest
Feeling like the most unhappy and isolated person I know

But your the one maddest
Feeling like others don't understand me or my struggles

The one gets attention I swear I don't want
Not seeking attention or pity from others

I wrote at a party cause I don't belong here
Feeling like an outsider at social events

Y'all think I'm a weirdo juts writing a song here
Feeling judged and ridiculed for my creative outlet

While your making out with a drunk girl who's wrong here
Feeling disconnected and out of place in social situations

Cause bet it ain't me
Feeling like everyone else fits in except for me

I literally give so much of a shit about what you think I need a drink
Caring too much about others' opinions and feeling overwhelmed by it

Alone is calm if you don't think I am
Finding solace and comfort in being alone, despite being perceived as isolated and unhappy

I fall into the ground I sink cause I swam
Feeling overwhelmed by life's challenges despite trying to stay afloat

Down to whatever
Feeling apathetic and indifferent towards life

Won't feel this forever
Hoping that my pain and sadness are only temporary and will eventually pass

My mind will get better
Believing that things will eventually get better with time and effort

Please
Requesting help or mercy

I just want it to stop
Desiring relief from my pain and struggles