The Lyndsay Diaries was the moniker of songwriter Scott Windsor. Windsor, a… Read Full Bio ↴The Lyndsay Diaries was the moniker of songwriter Scott Windsor. Windsor, a native of St. Louis, signed to The Militia Group in 2001 and has since put out two solo records, "Remember The Memories" in 2001, "The Tops Of Trees Are On Fire," in 2002, as well as an EP, "Midwestern," in 2004. Shortly after the release of "Midwestern," Windsor decided to form a full-time band, which he named Umbrellas. Umbrellas currently has two releases out on The Militia Group.

the magic in the number nineteen
The Lyndsay Diaries Lyrics

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She said, "It looks as if you've lost your best friend."
I tell her I've definitely lost something close to me.
I can taste the failure on my lips.
You know I'd love to just go back.
You can feel the world biting at my heels.

She's selling herself short and it costs all she has.
Paying for all the smiles and forcing back the tears at the questions asked.

There are just too many romances that expire at the stroke of midnight.

Stare straight at the wall until the tears form.
There's just something about the night. It gets me everytime.
Is it already too late to dream? They move on. I stand still.
There's something about the night. That gets me everytime.

To highlight your dreams is to give in to a false reality.
I gave up, I gave in. The joke is always on me.
Love gone bad with age...
These are surely the signs of the times.

Stare straight at the wall until the tears form.
There's just something about the night. It gets me everytime.
Is it already too late to dream? They move on. I stand still.
There's something about the night. That gets me everytime.

I know you would give everything if you could.
But sometimes it is just not enough to be told the words,

"Everything will be okay."
Can I just break down and fall into your arms?

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to The Lyndsay Diaries' song "The Magic in the Number Nineteen" are a raw and emotional account of a difficult time in the singer's life. The opening lines describe a conversation with someone who notes the singer's sadness and asks if they have lost their best friend. The singer responds that they have lost something close to them and can taste the failure on their lips. They express a desire to go back and feeling the world biting at their heels.

The song then shifts to focus on a woman who is selling herself short and paying for all the smiles while forcing back tears. The lyrics note that there are just too many romances that expire at the stroke of midnight. The singer then speaks about staring at the wall until tears form and how something about the night always gets to them. They wonder if it's too late to dream and feel like they are standing still while others move on.

The song continues with the singer giving up and giving in, with love going bad and signs of the times. They again mention the tears forming while staring at the wall and the feeling that the night always gets to them. The song ends with the singer expressing a desire to fall into someone's arms and break down.

Overall, the lyrics to "The Magic in the Number Nineteen" are a deeply personal and emotional account of a difficult time in the singer's life.

Line by Line Meaning

She said, "It looks as if you've lost your best friend."
She noticed that something is bothering me deeply and assumed that I lost the most important person in my life.

I tell her I've definitely lost something close to me.
I confirmed what she suspected, that I lost someone or something that's significant to me.

I can taste the failure on my lips.
I feel hopeless and defeated, and I can't hide the bitterness of my failure.

You know I'd love to just go back.
I wish I could undo everything and change the course of events that led to my loss.

You can feel the world biting at my heels.
The weight of the world is bearing down on me, and I feel like everything is against me.

She's selling herself short and it costs all she has.
She's undervaluing herself and settling for less than she deserves, which takes a toll on her emotionally and financially.

Paying for all the smiles and forcing back the tears at the questions asked.
She's trying to appear happy and confident despite the pain and struggles she faces in life, and she's tired of pretending.

There are just too many romances that expire at the stroke of midnight.
Love stories are often fleeting and unpredictable, and many relationships end abruptly without warning or explanation.

Is it already too late to dream? They move on. I stand still.
I feel like I missed my chance to pursue my dreams, while others are succeeding and advancing in life. I'm stuck in one place and time, unable to move forward.

To highlight your dreams is to give in to a false reality.
Focusing too much on your aspirations can lead you to ignore or overlook the harsh realities and obstacles that you face in achieving them.

I gave up, I gave in. The joke is always on me.
I lost hope and surrendered to my fate, which seems to be a never-ending cycle of disappointment and failure. It feels like I'm the only one who's being punished.

Love gone bad with age...
Romantic relationships can deteriorate and lose their magic over time, despite efforts to keep them alive and fulfilling.

These are surely the signs of the times.
These experiences reflect the harsh realities and challenges of the current era, and they're not unique to me alone.

I know you would give everything if you could.
I trust that you're a loving and supportive person who would do anything to help me overcome my pain and struggles.

But sometimes it is just not enough to be told the words, "Everything will be okay."
Hearing words of comfort and reassurance can only do so much to alleviate my suffering and doubts. I need concrete action and results to believe that things will get better.

Can I just break down and fall into your arms?
I need a safe and caring space where I can express my vulnerability and let go of my pain, and you're the only one that I trust to provide that.

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