Equinox
The Parallel Lyrics

The years have past, and I feel afraid
As time has gone by, I have become scared of what lies ahead.

That days and nights now seem the same
I feel like every day is the same as the last; nothing changes.

I've lost sight of my purpose, but I still remain
I don't know what my purpose is, but I'm still here trying to figure it out.

So I carry on, loneliness and hollow thoughts are all that consume me
Despite feeling lonely and having negative thoughts, I continue living my life.

I refuse to be this empty shell of a man I've grown to be
I don't want to continue feeling empty and unfulfilled as I have been.

I'm held back by nothing, so let my thoughts be washed away, Never finding its way back
I'm not being held back by anything, so I want to let go of my negative thoughts and never let them come back.

I'm always saying there's nothing wrong
I often try to convince myself and others that everything is okay when it's really not.

In the depths of my mind I'm seeking purpose
I'm searching within myself to try and find my purpose.

In the depths of my mind I'm left unanswered
Despite my search, I haven't yet found the answer I'm looking for.

If only anything felt the way, it did before
I wish things could go back to the way they used to be.

If only anything felt the way it did before I became so numb
I specifically wish I could feel the same way I used to before I became emotionally numb.

My life is held on by stitches and it's falling apart by the seams
My life feels like it's being held together by only a few weak threads and is on the verge of falling apart.

It feels like I've been, drowning on past thoughts
I feel like I'm drowning in my own thoughts and memories of the past.

I try to keep my head above the tide
I do my best to stay afloat and not let myself be overwhelmed by my negative thoughts.

With these anchors, pulling me deeper
Despite my efforts, I feel like there are things holding me down and making it harder to stay afloat.

I'm not the only one
I realize that others also struggle and I'm not alone in feeling this way.

Time's never stopped me from feeling alone
Even as time goes on, I still feel lonely.

I've ripped every seam I've sown
I've made mistakes that have caused my life to fall apart.

I'll grow in ways that you have never known
Despite my struggles, I believe that I will grow and become a better person in ways that others may not understand.

We all have these demons latching tightly to our backs
Everyone has their own personal demons that they carry with them.

Constantly reminding us of struggles from our past
These demons are a constant reminder of our past struggles and mistakes.

I'm weighed down by what seems like nothing
Despite there being no tangible thing holding me back, I still feel weighed down and unable to move forward.

I'm weighed down by what seems like nothing
Despite there being no tangible thing holding me back, I still feel weighed down and unable to move forward.