Deep on My Heart
The Wilds Lyrics

Nobody cares but me
The singer is dealing with their problems alone and feels like nobody else cares about their struggles.

All I wanna do is relax, I just want my heart back
The singer is tired of feeling overwhelmed and just wants to find peace and happiness again.

Who cares if I'm drowning out
The singer is so focused on their own issues that they don't care if they're ignoring other problems in their life.

Sick of pretending now
The artist can no longer pretend that everything is okay and that they're not struggling.

This darkness it hollows me
The artist feels like they're being consumed by their problems and that they're hollowing out as a person.

Why does it follow me
The singer is questioning why their problems seem to be constantly present in their life.

I'm drowning, oh god
The singer feels like they're suffocating and that their problems are consuming them.

I can't trust like I used to
The artist has difficulty trusting others due to their struggles and past experiences.

Looking back 'cause it's all that I'm used to
The artist is stuck in the past and has trouble moving on from past experiences.

Yeah, I got a good view
The artist has a clear perspective on their struggles and understands them well.

Now I'm talking to my heart like, "I'm sorry I abused you"
The singer is acknowledging that they've mistreated themselves and their own emotions.

Stuck in my head 'cause I choose to
The artist is constantly dwelling on their problems and chooses to do so rather than finding a solution.

I can never find myself in a good mood
The singer has trouble finding happiness or positivity in their life due to their struggles.

The version of me that I know the best, always stressed
The singer is aware that their struggles have overtaken their life and cause constant stress.

Every night he's a drunken mess
The singer uses alcohol to try and cope with their problems.

He'll pop a couple pills but he's still depressed
The artist uses medication to try and cope with their problems, but it doesn't fix their underlying depression.

Woke up on the floor with his hands on chest like, take a breath
The artist has hit rock bottom and is trying to remind themselves to keep breathing and pushing through their struggles.

He's still got a soul, hasn't sold it yet
Despite their struggles, the singer hasn't completely given up on themselves and still has hope.

Prohibition eyes from the times he wept
The singer has cried so much that their eyes seem to be permanently red and puffy.

A version of himself that her spell would wreck
The artist was once in a toxic relationship that took a toll on them emotionally.

Time to view this in a different light
The artist is trying to change their perspective on their problems and find a new way to look at them.

Ask myself if we're different types
The artist is questioning whether they and someone they were once close to are fundamentally different people.

Maybe could've found this at a different time
The singer wonders if their problems would be different if they had gone through them at a different time in their life.

Maybe could've ended up different right, like why
The artist regrets some of the choices they've made that led them to this point and wonders what could have been different.

So where the fuck did my love go
The singer is questioning where the love and happiness they used to feel went in their life.

Why'd you leave and let nothing show
The singer is referring to someone who left their life and didn't explain why, leaving the singer feeling abandoned and alone.

You pulled my strings
The singer feels like someone else had control over their emotions and actions and manipulated them.

You continue to cling on to everything that I'll never know
The artist feels like someone they once trusted is keeping secrets and holding onto information that they'll never reveal to the artist.

I opened up and you closed the door
The artist tried to be vulnerable and share their emotions with someone, but that person shut them out and didn't reciprocate.

If I try again, I know the blood will pour
The singer is afraid that if they open up to someone again, it will hurt them just as much or even more than before.

I don't even know what I'm searching for
The singer is lost and doesn't know how to find happiness or a solution to their problems.

You run, I stay
The artist feels like someone they cared about left them while they stayed and dealt with their problems.

Paralyzed sitting in the rain
The artist feels stuck or unable to move on while they deal with their struggles.

I seek, and you hide
The artist is trying to find answers or solutions, but feels like someone is keeping them from discovering the truth.

All the games, playing with my mind
The singer feels like someone is playing mind games with them to mess with their emotions and thoughts.

Overwhelmed, I will never be the same
The artist is so taken over by their struggles that they feel like they will never be the same person they once were.

Something's gone, you can see it in my eyes
The singer's struggles are visible and apparent to others who see them.

Isolating myself again
The singer is pushing people away and isolating themselves because of their struggles.

Hate myself for the times I've spent
The singer feels regret and self-hatred for the choices they've made in the past.

Tryna fix you, wouldn't fix me
The artist tried to help someone else in the past, but realized that it didn't fix their own problems or make them feel better.

Walls finally built laid in dry cement
The artist has built up emotional walls to protect themselves, and those walls are now permanent and unbreakable.

Our eyes meet and my gut twists
The singer sees someone from their past and feels a physical reaction in their gut, indicating that they have unresolved emotions related to that person.

A feeling that I know I'd never fucking miss
The singer feels a negative emotion related to the person they're seeing, and knows that they would never want to feel that way again.

Now you walk around like some tough bitch
The artist sees someone from their past who is now putting on a tough front, but the artist knows that this person has their own underlying vulnerabilities and problems.

Police your love? You couldn't cuff shit
The artist is criticizing someone for trying to control or police their emotions and actions when they were unable to do so effectively.

You keep on singing the same song
The artist is frustrated that someone else keeps repeating the same behaviors and actions, even though they're not working or effective.

Over and over again 'til your pain's drawn
The singer is referring to someone who is repeatedly causing themselves pain and frustration, but doesn't seem to realize or care that they're doing it.

So deep inside 'til the chains are taught
The artist is describing how someone's emotional pain can be so deep that it feels like they're trapped by chains or unable to free themselves.

With another heart in your safe, locked
The singer is referring to someone who is guarding their emotions and has locked up their heart to protect themselves from potential hurt or pain.

I was risking everything to show this side of me
The singer was vulnerable and put themselves at risk emotionally to share their true self with someone else.

I'm sorry I could not save you
The singer feels responsible for someone else's problems or pain, but knows that they were unable to fix the situation.

I'm tortured mentally, I'm torn and begging please
The artist is in significant emotional pain and is begging for relief from their struggles.

Give me back what I gave you
The artist is asking someone to return the emotional investment and vulnerability that they once gave to that person.

All I wanna do is relax, I just want my heart back
The singer is expressing their desire to find peace, happiness, and emotional healing.