De profundis
Thieves' Kitchen Lyrics


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This is my life
This broken fence
This grey and fractured
Spiralling spike in my side
The splinter in my side
The splinter in my dreams
Too real, too real
Hollowed whole
Lightning-struck and smoking
The trauma of I
The danger of being, and feeling, and seeing

I'm fighting time
I can't explain
I'm torn apart by
My compulsion to destroy
I'm splintering inside
It's too real, too real

Hollowed whole
Lightning-struck and smoking
The trauma of I
The danger of being, and feeling, and seeing
I live where I stand
For tomorrow I die

I'm open now, the wound may heal
I smile inside in spite of me




I try in vain to redefine
The worn and ancient part of me

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Thieves' Kitchen's De Profundis confront the pain and complexity of living. The singer starts with a metaphor of a broken fence, representing their life, which is grey and fractured, full of the splinters of their unattainable dreams. The pain is too real and too constant, represented by the spiraling spike in their side. The second verse continues the depiction of the singer's pain, as they feel hollowed out and destroyed by the trauma of their existence. The danger of being, feeling, and seeing is too much, and they feel torn apart by their own compulsions toward self-destruction. However, there is a glimmer of hope in the last stanza, as they may be able to heal the wound that has split them apart from the inside. Despite their struggles, they smile inside, trying to redefine the parts of themselves that are worn and ancient.


Overall, the lyrics suggest a delicate balancing act between pain and hope. The singer is engulfed in overwhelming pain and trauma, but they try to find light and healing where they can, clinging onto hope by a thread.


Line by Line Meaning

This is my life
I am experiencing my existence


This broken fence
My life is imperfect and vulnerable


This grey and fractured
My life is dull and damaged


Spiralling spike in my side
The pain within me is severe and twisting


The splinter in my side
A small but painful reminder of my trauma


The splinter in my dreams
My trauma haunts me even in my sleep


Too real, too real
My trauma is overwhelming and hard to escape


Hollowed whole
I feel empty and broken


Lightning-struck and smoking
I am electrified with emotion and turmoil


The trauma of I
My personal struggles have left deep scars


The danger of being, and feeling, and seeing
The risk of being alive, feeling emotions, and perceiving the world


I'm fighting time
I am struggling against the passage of time


I can't explain
I lack the words to describe my experience


I'm torn apart by
My internal conflict is tearing me apart


My compulsion to destroy
My desire to self-destructive behavior


I'm splintering inside
I am falling apart emotionally


It's too real, too real
My experience feels too intense and authentic


I live where I stand
I am making the best of my current situation


For tomorrow I die
I am uncertain about the future and my mortality


I'm open now, the wound may heal
I am vulnerable and willing to heal from my wounds


I smile inside in spite of me
I am trying to find joy despite my struggles


I try in vain to redefine
I am attempting to change my outlook and attitude to life, without success


The worn and ancient part of me
The damaged and long-standing part of me that's hard to change




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