The Background
Third Eye Blind Lyrics

Everything is quiet, Since you're not around,
The absence of your presence has led to the stillness of my surroundings. It's as if you've created a void that has left me in a state of stagnancy.

And I live in the numbness now.
The numbness has taken over me completely, leaving me in a state of desolation where I no longer feel anything.

In the background.
Despite the numbness and the silence, you still manage to occupy a small place in my thoughts and my heart.

I do the things we did before,
In an attempt to hold onto you and the memories we shared, I find myself replicating the things we used to do together.

I walk Haight Street to the store,
I walk down the street that we used to frequent together in hopes that somehow, I'll come across you.

And they say where's that crazy girl?
People notice my erratic behavior and wonder where you are, not knowing that you're the reason behind it.

You don't get drunk on red wine, and fight no more,
Without you, I don't engage in the destructive behaviors we used to partake in. I no longer find solace in escaping reality.

'Cause I don't see you anymore,
Your absence has brought about an end to our destructive routine that involved drinking and fighting.

Since the hospital,
Your hospitalization has separated us and created a distance that cannot be bridged.

But the plans I make still have you in them,
Despite the distance and separation, you remain a constant figure in my future plans and aspirations.

Then you come swimming into view,
Whether in my thoughts or dreams, your memory always finds a way to resurface and make its presence felt.

And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do,
Your words still have power over me and hold me captive in a way that's reminiscent of our past relationship.

The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you,
People may use similar words casually, but to me, they're only a reminder of you and our history.

I only know this because I carry you around,
You still remain a part of me, and I carry thoughts of you with me wherever I go.

Words they come and memories all repeat,
Words and memories refuse to be forgotten and linger in my mind, replaying endlessly.

I lift your head while,
I remember hospital scenes where I took care of you in your helpless state.

They change the hospital sheets,
The mundane tasks of hospital staff serve as a metaphor for how life goes on without you, despite my reluctance to do so.

I would never lie to you, No
I could never bring myself to deceive you, even if it meant making things easier for myself.

I felt you long after we were through.
Even after our relationship ended, I still carried thoughts of you and memories of us.

And the plans I make still have you in them,
Despite the passage of time, you remain present in my mind and in my future aspirations.

Cause you come swimming into view,
Your memory refuses to be forgotten and resurfaces often, even when I try to suppress it.

And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do,
Your words still hold weight over me and have the power to leave me hanging on to every word, like in our past relationship.

The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you,
Words used lightly by others only serve to remind me of you and nothing else, as you still occupy a special place in my heart.

I only know this because I carry you around,
You still linger in my thoughts and heart, and I carry you with me wherever I go.

In the background.
Despite the numbness and silence, you remain a constant presence, albeit a quiet one, in my life and in my mind.