If I
Tom & Dexx Lyrics

Been feeling kinda down the last couple days
Lately, I have been experiencing a sense of sadness and low mood for the past few days.

But imma cheer myself up with the music in place
However, I will uplift my spirits by listening to music.

Getting shivers on my body
The music gives me a physical reaction, causing shivers to run through my body.

And my heads in a daze
As a result, my mind becomes confused and disoriented.

I need a ah ah ah
I am searching for a particular sensation or experience.

I need a good fucking feeling
Specifically, I desire a powerful and positive emotional state.

I want somewhere to go
I yearn for a destination or purpose to fulfill.

I'm getting faded at the bar
Presently, I am becoming intoxicated at a bar.

And I got money to blow
Moreover, I have excess funds to spend recklessly.

I wanna go test somebody I got courage to show
I desire to confront or challenge someone, as I possess the bravery to do so.

I got a ah ah ah
I possess a certain feeling or experience.

Why can't I do it well I have tried
I wonder why I am unable to succeed, despite my efforts.

I got so high then I fell and I died
My state of euphoria abruptly turned into a state of despair and defeat.

I'm always spinning my heads so fried
My mind is constantly overwhelmed and exhausted.

Feeling so dumb yeah I'm feeling so numb
I experience a sense of stupidity and emotional numbness.

I don't if this is real life so I bite my thumb
I am uncertain if my current reality is genuine, hence resorting to biting my thumb as a way to ground myself.

I always keep moving on forward and backwards
I persistently alternate between progressing and regressing.

I wanna be an icon but I'm known as a bastard
My aspiration is to become a revered figure, but unfortunately, I am labeled as an outcast or undesirable.

People always talk to me yet I'm acting flustered
Although people frequently engage with me, I often appear overwhelmed and disoriented.

If you're talking down you better know it's your last word
If someone speaks condescendingly towards me, they should be aware that it may be their final remark.

Head rush from the drag of this nicotine
The inhalation of nicotine provides me with a sudden rush of sensation to my head.

I murder any beat people saying "the killer mean"
I excellently perform and dominate in any musical rhythm, earning recognition as an exceptional artist.

I'm under stress i need a method I ain't talking bean
The pressure and anxiety I experience require a solution, and I don't mean a trivial or insignificant one.

My lyrics reaching mercury that's why they call me killer queen
The impact and influence of my lyrics spread like mercury, leading to my nickname 'killer queen'.

I got one two three too many fucking haters
I have an excessive number of individuals who strongly dislike or resent me.

One two three too many see you laters
Likewise, there are too many people who have parted ways with me, causing our paths to diverge.

I gotta pause for a second put on my shaders
I must temporarily halt my actions to wear a metaphorical shield or protective barrier.

Your music makes me tired you're a sedator
Your music exhausts me and has a sedative effect, causing me to become fatigued.

Feeling so dumb yeah I'm feeling so numb
Once again, I experience a sense of foolishness and emotional detachment.

I don't if this is real life so I bite my thumb
Similar to before, I am uncertain if my current reality is authentic, thus resorting to biting my thumb as a grounding technique.

Feeling so dumb yeah I'm feeling so numb
Continuing from earlier, I still grapple with a sense of foolishness and emotional detachment.

I don't if this is real life so I bite my thumb
Once again, I am unsure if my current reality is genuine, leading me to bite my thumb as a method of grounding myself.

Feeling so dumb yeah I'm feeling so numb
Continuing from before, I still experience a sense of foolishness and emotional detachment.

I don't if this is real life so I bite my thumb
Once more, I am uncertain if my current reality is authentic, prompting me to bite my thumb as a means of grounding.