“Y'know, once you've felt life in your body, you can't go back to having been a woman that's never carried life. The other thing is feeling something dying inside you and you're still alive. Obviously when it was happening, it was already over, but in my mind, you don't know that it's over yet. You're doing anything, thinking, 'Oh God, maybe if I put a cork up myself, maybe it'll keep this little life in.' That's why in 'Spark', I say, 'She's convinced she could hold back a glacier/But she couldn't keep baby alive.' You just start going insane. There's nothing you can do, so so you surrender and then... start again.”
Spark
Tori Amos Lyrics
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She's addicted to nicotine patches
She's afraid of the light in the dark
6:58 are you sure where my spark is
Here, here, here
She's convinced she could hold back a glacier
But she couldn't keep baby alive
Doubting if there's a woman in there somewhere
You say you don't want it again and again
But you don't, don't really mean it
You say you don't want it this circus were in
But you don't, don't really mean it
You don't, don't really mean it
If the divine master plan is perfected
Maybe next I'll give Judus a try
Trusting my soul to the ice cream assassin
Here, here, here
You say you don't want it again and again
But you don't, don't really mean it
You say you don't want it this circus were in
But you don't, don't really mean it
You don't, don't really mean it
How mant fates turn around in the overturn
Ballerina's that have fins that you'll never find
You thought that you were the bomb, yes, well so did I
Say you don't want it, say you don't want it
How mant fates turn around in the overturn
Ballerina's that have fins that you'll never find
You thought that you were the bomb, yes, well so did I
Say you don't want it, say you don't want it
Say you don't want it again and again
But you don't, don't really mean it
You say you don't want it
This circus were in
But you don't, don't really mean it
You don't, don't really mean it
She's addicted to nicotine patches
She's afraid of the light in the dark
6:58 are you sure where my spark is
Here, here, here
The lyrics of "Spark" by Tori Amos tell the story of a woman who is struggling with addiction and doubt. The repetition of "She's addicted to nicotine patches" emphasizes the woman's dependency, while "She's afraid of the light in the dark" suggests that she may be afraid of the truth. The line "6:58 are you sure where my spark is here here here" is a reference to the time when the songwriter had a miscarriage and she questions whether or not she lost a part of herself in the process.
The woman in the song believes that she is capable of handling anything, even holding back a glacier, yet she couldn't keep her baby alive. This contradiction highlights her feelings of doubt and uncertainty. She questions whether there is a woman inside of her or not, which could be interpreted as her questioning her own identity.
The lyrics also reference the Divine Master Plan, suggesting a belief in a higher power. However, the line "Maybe next I'll give Judus a try" is a play on words, as "Judas" is typically associated with betrayal. Trusting her soul to the "ice cream assassin" could be interpreted as her using addiction to cope with her feelings.
Line by Line Meaning
She's addicted to nicotine patches
She has a dependency on the temporary relief provided by nicotine patches.
She's afraid of the light in the dark
She fears the unfamiliar and unknown that comes with darkness.
6:58 are you sure where my spark is here here here
The singer questions whether or not she still possesses her creative spark or if it has been lost.
She's convinced she could hold back a glacier, but she couldn't keep baby alive
While the woman believes she has the power to conquer great obstacles, she failed at something much more important and personal.
Doubting if there's a woman in there somewhere here here here
The singer is questioning and doubting her own femininity and identity.
You say you don't want it again and again but you don't, don't really mean it
The person is conflicted with their true desires and what they think they should want.
If the divine master plan is perfected, Maybe next I'll give Judus a try
The singer is jaded by the idea of a pre-determined fate and is considering making a reckless decision.
Trusting my soul to the icecream assassin here here here
The singer is using a metaphor to express placing her trust in someone who may harm her or deceive her.
How mant fates turn around in the overturn
The singer is acknowledging the unpredictability of life and how quickly things can change.
Ballerina's that have fins that you'll never find
The singer is expressing the impossible expectations society places on women to be something they can never truly be.
You thought that you were the bomb yes well so did I
The singer had false confidence in herself and recognizes she was not as great as she once thought.
Say you don't want it say you don't want it
The singer is urging someone to be honest with themselves about what they truly desire.
This circus were in but you don't, don't really mean it
The person is again conflicted with staying in a situation that is not fulfilling despite their stated desire to leave it.
Don't really mean it
The repetition emphasizes the person's insincerity and internal conflict about what they want.
Lyrics © Downtown Music Publishing
Written by: Tori Ellen Amos
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@sinaeternitas8506
I heard this song once when I was 16.
...I didn't remember the artist, I didn't remember the title...
Just the melody and this one phrase
"You say you don't want it
This circus were in but you don't, don't really mean it
Don't really mean it"
I couldn't find it for years, especially before the internet provided the current sum of songs and lyrics.
Now I found it back...
...and it's a masterpiece, as I remembered it.
~ Ravenburgh (Sin Aeternitas)
@victorriva395
I was the online editor on this video, what a nice time we had, we edited it in one night!
@makemarker
Very effective and creepy.. I can imagine one of Ted Bundy's victims going through this ..
@ClaLu
This is a master piece that expresses visually very well the emotions of this haunting and absolutely beautiful song. Thank you so much for your work 💙
@OctopusOwl
Really great choices in your editing!
@glynn3331
Yeah awesome job! Love the environment with the song!
@glynn3331
@@makemarker looks more like btk to me! Moo is spot on with him!
@swarae
I've always been a loner in this world, but with Tori in my life throughout my teens and now in my 40's, I've never been lonely.
@mrsanakin1617
I can completely relate .. in my 40’s too love this woman
@edtietz
I've always liked her, but I had a few friends in college that worshipped her...and I'm pretty sure they feel exactly the same way. Know that you aren't alone.
@theamazingt4r468
Yep. Same.