Reflections
Trav Da Poet Lyrics
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Wide awake pondering questions
Of my state of affairs, my hair
And other internal reflections
Mirror of self, eternal reflection
On the hot seat of my mind's logical dissection
Is my talent in discernible recession
Can I bounce back from low level depression
Of this hard heart riddled with infection
To accept love and enjoy its blessing
Or be cursed to a life of fake hugs and professions
All these questions and no answers
Tumorous thoughts, maybe I'm the cancer
Tried to be the arm but instead was the hammer
Lying to self that I'm tipsy but really hammered
Off the wine & spirits of lust, anger, and rancor
Tried to pray to God but I just stammered
All my life I was told I was pampered
By skinfolk who wanted my progress hampered
And kinfolk who had ought against my parents
While I sought closer from my parents
Severed a bond they never should've made
Laid foundations with debt never paid
Emotionally paying interest on loans inherited
Present issues lumped with the past disparagement
It's no wonder why I waver from hope to not caring
I isolated myself to protect from the division
Not realizing I built my own prison
But now I wanna escape & start living
Honest inspection of my personal misgivings
Reflections
Yea
Reflections in the late night
It's Trav Da Poet, "Issues of Life Volume One"
Come ride with me
Feel my pain
See God's glory in my story
Trav
In these lyrics, Trav Da Poet reflects on his state of mind and emotions during a late night session of introspection. He questions various aspects of his life, including his talent, mental health, and ability to accept love. He wonders whether he can recover from his state of low-level depression and open himself up to receiving love and its blessings, or if he will be trapped in a life of insincerity and false affection. These unanswered questions leave him with a heavy burden, feeling like a tumor within himself and questioning his worth.
Trav Da Poet reveals his struggles with self-deception and the vices that have consumed him, such as lust, anger, and resentment. Despite attempting to reach out to God in prayer, he finds himself stumbling over his words, likely due to a lack of clarity in his thoughts and emotions. He reflects on his upbringing, where he was told he was pampered but was actually hindered by family members who held grudges against his parents. Seeking closeness with his parents, he finds his efforts fruitless, leading to a broken bond that should never have been created. Instead, he inherits a financial and emotional debt, constantly burdened by past difficulties and present challenges.
Feeling trapped and isolated, Trav Da Poet describes how he unintentionally built his own prison by distancing himself from others. However, he now desires to break free and start truly living. He recognizes the importance of honestly examining his own flaws and acknowledges that these reflections will be a significant part of his personal growth. By sharing his story, he hopes others can relate to his pain and find solace in recognizing that even in the depths of despair, there is a glimmer of hope. Trav Da Poet invites listeners to join him on this introspective journey filled with both pain and the potential for the discovery of inner strength and resilience.
Line by Line Meaning
In the late night
During the late night, when I am alone with my thoughts
Wide awake pondering questions
Fully awake, reflecting deeply on various questions
Of my state of affairs, my hair
Considering my current situation, even the details like my appearance
And other internal reflections
And other thoughts and contemplations about myself
Mirror of self, eternal reflection
The reflection of myself in the mirror symbolizes a continuous self-reflection
On the hot seat of my mind's logical dissection
Feeling the pressure to logically analyze and evaluate my thoughts
Is my talent in discernible recession
Am I experiencing a noticeable decline in my talent
Can I bounce back from low level depression
Can I recover and overcome my mild depression
Will I open my chest for resection
Will I allow my heart to be examined and changed
Of this hard heart riddled with infection
Of this emotionally closed-off heart, full of negativity
To accept love and enjoy its blessing
To embrace love and experience its positive impact
Or be cursed to a life of fake hugs and professions
Or be doomed to a life where affection and words are insincere
All these questions and no answers
Having many questions but lacking answers
Tumorous thoughts, maybe I'm the cancer
Negative thoughts consuming my mind, wondering if I am the problem
Tried to be the arm but instead was the hammer
Attempted to support others, but ended up causing harm
Lying to self that I'm tipsy but really hammered
Lying to myself, pretending I am slightly affected when in truth, I am deeply hurt
Off the wine & spirits of lust, anger, and rancor
Overwhelmed by the negative influences of desire, rage, and bitterness
Tried to pray to God but I just stammered
Attempted to communicate with God, but struggled with finding the right words
All my life I was told I was pampered
Throughout my life, I was made to believe that I was overly privileged
By skinfolk who wanted my progress hampered
By people of the same ethnicity who desired to hinder my success
And kinfolk who had ought against my parents
And relatives who held grudges against my parents
While I sought closer from my parents
While I yearned for a closer relationship with my parents
Severed a bond they never should've made
Damaged a connection that should never have been broken
Laid foundations with debt never paid
Built the basis of relationships with unresolved issues
Emotionally paying interest on loans inherited
Continuously dealing with emotional consequences inherited from the past
Present issues lumped with the past disparagement
The current problems intertwined with previous criticisms
It's no wonder why I waver from hope to not caring
It's understandable why my emotions fluctuate from hopefulness to apathy
I isolated myself to protect from the division
I chose to be alone in order to shield myself from further conflicts
Not realizing I built my own prison
Unaware that my isolation created a self-imposed confinement
But now I wanna escape & start living
However, now I desire to break free and truly experience life
Honest inspection of my personal misgivings
Truthfully examining my own doubts and shortcomings
Reflections
Contemplations and self-reflections
Yea
Yes
Reflections in the late night
Deep thoughts and self-reflections during the late night
It's Trav Da Poet, "Issues of Life Volume One"
I am Trav Da Poet, presenting my album "Issues of Life Volume One"
Come ride with me
Join me on this journey
Feel my pain
Experience and understand my struggles
See God's glory in my story
Witness the wonders of God's presence in my life
Trav
Trav Da Poet
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Written by: Travis Williams
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