Murphy has performed twice at the Austin City Limits Music Festival, and in Italy, France and other European countries. She also teaches Italian cooking and supports outreach programs for middle school-aged girls. Murphy's music features story-telling and personal expression. In her own words, the challenge to her songwriting "is to evoke as many images as possible with as few words as possible."
Murphy made her 2005 record release, Girls Get In Free following a sabbatical from performing and a period of personal difficulties. This record combined Murphy's music with a cause she supports as the CD release party benefitted GENAustin, a non-profit outreach program that helps middle school-aged girls develop strong self-esteem. Murphy is also a member of GENAustin's Board of Directors.
Today Murphy performs solo, with her rock band, and as part of a 70s tribute band, SKYROCKET!. Murphy also teaches Italian cooking using recipes learned from her grandmother at Austin's Central Market and other cooking schools.
Outsider
Trish Murphy Lyrics
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I'm still on the other side,
And I'm finding it so hard that
I just stopped trying.
I'm so ordinary when you look at me,
Nothing really or very bad has ever happened to me.
And it feels like nothing matters anymore.
I am on the outside, looking in.
Hello, these are my would-be friends.
You all say "you look fine to me,"
But I'm not what I seem to be.
Do not trust what you see.
It's getting close the three,
And I'm wasting time.
I must be out of my mind
To be waiting for the words to come and find me.
Has anybody seen my better side?
Or seen me from the inside,
Looking out on all I tried to leave behind?
When it feels like I don't matter anymore.
And I can't get through this door,
I'm still on the outside, looking in.
Hello, these are my would-be friends.
You all say "you look fine to me,"
But I'm not what I seem to be. (verse x3)
I'm still on the outside (looking in)
I'm still on the outside (looking in)
I am on the outside (looking in)
Looking in.
Trish Murphy's song "Outsider" explores the feeling of being disconnected from society and struggling to fit in. The lyrics delve into the emotions of the singer who is on the "downhill side" of life and finds it hard to keep going. They feel ordinary and like nothing really matters anymore.
As the singer looks around, they feel like they are on the outside looking in at the world around them. They see their friends who say they look fine, but they don't truly understand what the singer is going through. The lyrics repeat the phrase "I'm still on the outside, looking in" several times, emphasizing the overwhelming feeling of being disconnected and isolated.
The chorus includes the lines "Has anybody seen my better side? Or seen me from the inside, looking out on all I tried to leave behind?" This line speaks to the theme of not being understood and feeling like no one sees the real person beneath the surface. The song concludes with the singer still feeling like an outsider and looking in from the outside.
Overall, "Outsider" is a powerful exploration of the feeling of being disconnected and struggling to fit in with the world around. The lyrics are relatable to anyone who has ever felt like they don't quite belong.
Line by Line Meaning
What's it like to be on the downhill side?
Have you ever experienced being at your lowest point?
I'm still on the other side,
I haven't reached that low point yet.
And I'm finding it so hard that
But the struggles I'm facing today are becoming so difficult
I just stopped trying.
that I'm losing my motivation to push through.
I'm so ordinary when you look at me,
When people see me, they see someone who's normal and unremarkable.
Nothing really or very bad has ever happened to me.
It seems like I've lived a relatively fortunate life.
And it feels like nothing matters anymore.
But lately, everything seems pointless and insignificant.
As I open up this door,
I'm starting to realize something new.
I am on the outside, looking in.
I feel like an outsider, looking in on a world that doesn't fully accept me.
Hello, these are my would-be friends.
I'm surrounded by people who might like me, but I'm not sure.
You all say 'you look fine to me,'
People tell me I seem okay, but they don't know the inner turmoil I feel.
But I'm not what I seem to be.
That's because I'm not as happy and together as I appear. You can't trust first impressions.
It's getting close to three,
Time is ticking away, and I'm not sure what to do.
And I'm wasting time.
I'm not making the most of my moments and opportunities.
I must be out of my mind
It makes me feel crazy
To be waiting for the words to come and find me.
to be waiting for some magical answer or solution to drop into my lap.
Has anybody seen my better side?
Has anyone noticed the parts of myself that I hide away, my true potential?
Or seen me from the inside,
Does anyone truly know me, beneath all my outward appearances?
Looking out on all I tried to leave behind?
Do I sometimes regret leaving things in my past?
When it feels like I don't matter anymore.
When it seems like I'm no longer important or valued.
And I can't get through this door,
When I feel blocked from achieving my goals.
I'm still on the outside (looking in)
I'm not quite ready or able to enter into society's mainstream.
Looking in.
I'm still on the outside looking in.
Contributed by Nathaniel C. Suggest a correction in the comments below.