I Fade Away
Tulips Ballad Lyrics
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In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
When I'm alone I find I fade away
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
I always try
To say goodbye
But I can't
Seem to shake this
When I'm alone I find I fade away
Got lost in doubt
I'm playing games
When I'm alone I find I fade away
Got lost in doubt
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
Deep dive in the darkness
Do demons ever do to sleep
I feel them keeping me awake
See them sip my soul with tea
Sweet sugar-filled palm trees
Memories I can't keep
Brittle bones in my back crack and break
As a black smoke start to creep
And I don't really mind when the time slips away
Finna find myself in the mirror somehow someday
Holding out for change
Is about as pointless of a game that I could play
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
The lyrics to Tulips Ballad's song "I Fade Away" describe the feeling of losing oneself and succumbing to doubts and self-criticism. The singer talks about how, when they are alone, they often find themselves fading away into thoughts and doubts, and how they can't seem to shake this feeling. They repeat the lines "When I'm alone I find I fade away / In a thought I finally found / I figured out I'm still the same / Got lost in doubt / My mind's playing games / Do it all over again / I can't do it all again," emphasizing the frustration of feeling stuck in a cycle of negativity.
The second verse talks about a "deep dive in the darkness" and the demons that keep the singer up at night. They mention brittle bones and black smoke creeping in, further emphasizing the feeling of being trapped and overwhelmed by their own thoughts and emotions. However, the final lines provide a glimmer of hope, as the singer looks towards the future and hopes to "find [themself] in the mirror somehow someday." It is a poignant reflection on the struggles of owning one's identity and overcoming self-doubt.
Line by Line Meaning
When I'm alone I find I fade away
Being alone makes me feel like I disappear
In a thought I finally found
I finally found clarity in a thought
I figured out I'm still the same
I realized that I am still the same despite my struggles
Got lost in doubt
I became confused and uncertain
My mind's playing games
My mind is deceiving me with negative thoughts
Do it all over again
I am stuck in a cycle of repeating my mistakes
I can't do it all again
I feel unable to repeat my past mistakes
I always try
I frequently attempt
To say goodbye
To bid farewell to my struggles
But I can't
But I am unable to let go
Seem to shake this
I cannot seem to overcome my struggles
Deep dive in the darkness
I am delving into my innermost struggles
Do demons ever do to sleep
Do my struggles ever end or subside?
I feel them keeping me awake
My struggles keep me up at night
See them sip my soul with tea
I feel my struggles slowly draining my energy
Sweet sugar-filled palm trees
Memories that once brought me joy
Memories I can't keep
Memories that I cannot hold onto or preserve
Brittle bones in my back crack and break
The weight of my struggles is physically painful and exhausting
As a black smoke starts to creep
My struggles are creeping up on me like a dark cloud
And I don't really mind when the time slips away
I do not value or cherish time passing by
Finna find myself in the mirror somehow someday
I hope to find my true self in the future despite my struggles
Holding out for change
I am hoping for a positive change
Is about as pointless of a game that I could play
I feel like hoping for change is almost futile
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Emily DesJardins, Matthias Embry, Nathan Zak
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
CAT DAD
Hey dude! Love this! Thanks so much for posting this!
paletteism
Much love broo ❤
Yendrick Porras
Honestly, I would love a cut where its just the first part on loop, before the girl vocals
Moonyverse
I have been searching for this song for 2 years I'm going to cry
james daniel salamanca romero
Buenardo wuachin UwU, quedó mamalon UwU ♥️♥️
paletteism
❤❤❤
Sanjay Dhandare
This song is in avakin life love it 😍😵😛😊
paletteism
That is great!
CAT DAD
Also produced by the prodigal M.E
Lucas Drago
Hey! I'm back... 🇧🇷Let's see what I missed while I was gone...