Monolith
Twin Pumpkin Lyrics

I fancied I could dissolve by the sunset
I thought I could disappear or become part of the sunset.

Tried to plead to God but she just said: No
I asked God for help, but I didn't receive any.

I wish that I could feel more like a human
I want to feel more like a normal person.

but a world of a ghost is so closed and so cold
Living in a world of emptiness and loneliness is unbearable.

I got a toll on my mind, everyone thinks that I'm fine
Mental health issues have taken a toll, but no one understands.

Vicious cycles of monolith eyes
Repetitive, draining life experiences that feel inescapable.

Sewed up my shame with moss
Trying to hide my mistakes and flaws, but they're still there.

Sold my soul for some body parts
Sacrificing my integrity or values for physical possessions or validation.

If freedom is the last thing than blood is everlasting
Freedom is important, but being loyal to family or loved ones is even stronger.

But it's hard to let you go
It's difficult to move on from someone or something.

Been searching for a truth clear, I'm running on a loop here
I'm searching for a clear answer or solution, but feel stuck in a cycle.

I will never let you go
I won't give up on this person or thing even if it's hurting me.

You better take me down before I
I won't give up without a fight.

If I had 1 centavo for everytime I fucking cried in the closet,
I've cried a lot and kept it hidden away.

fighting with my conscious, I'd be richer than the man who invented Jesus Christ, Beelzebub
Struggling with my inner demons more than anyone could imagine.

I'd win the lotto
I've cried so much it's like winning the lottery.

I'm breaking, I'll break it, I'm breaking, I'll break it, I'll break it until I can't take it anymore
I'm reaching a breaking point and will keep pushing until it's too much.

Fate, I got only myself to blame
My fate is a consequence of my own actions or decisions.

Faith, I got only myself to blame
Lack of faith or trust in others is my own fault.

The season's nearly through here, don't matter what I'll lose no
Time is running out, but I won't give up or let go.

I will never let this go
I won't forget or give up on this thing or person.

I only got myself to blame
I am responsible for my current situation or problems.