Half Life
Twin Shadow Lyrics

We came up so carelessly
We started our relationship without much thought or consideration.

Boys were falling at your feet
You were very attractive and had many suitors.

Proud to have you next to me
I was happy to be with you.

But I was hanging desperately
I was very dependent on you and felt like I couldn't live without you.

Twisted emotions down low
I had complicated and dark feelings that I kept hidden.

Every door closing forever to go
It felt like all my opportunities for happiness were closing and I couldn't move forward.

And I can often lose control
I sometimes have a hard time managing my emotions.

I Push it down so it doesn't show
I try to hide my emotions so others won't see them.

I will beg for it, you won't for me
I'll plead for your love and affection, but you won't do the same for me.

Do you know why I stumble
Do you understand why I struggle and make mistakes?

When I'm way down on my knees
When I feel powerless and vulnerable.

I've been racing through a half life
I've been living a life that's only half-real or half-lived.

And it's taking its toll on me
It's affecting me in a negative way and wearing me down.

Do you know what I suffer
Do you realize the pain and difficulties I'm going through?

In this cold hard company
In this world or situation where I feel alone and unsupported.

Guess I'll see you in this half life
I'll continue to have a relationship with you, even though it's not fulfilling or real.

When it's taking over me
When my unhappiness and frustration with this half-life becomes too much for me to handle.

I know I'm cold and chemical
I realize that I can be emotionally distant and not always genuine in my feelings.

It's the lie I can't control
It's my inability to be honest and vulnerable that I struggle with the most.

So dark and low
My emotions and thoughts are often negative and hopeless.

I know you hate how I react the kind of pain that makes you laugh
You dislike how I respond to difficult situations and sometimes find it humorous.

It's coming fast
My negative emotions are building and becoming harder to control.

I won't wait for it, you won't for me
I won't stick around for this half-life anymore, and you won't try to keep me here.

Taking over me
I'm being consumed by my negative emotions and situation.

Now you know why I stumble
I've explained the reasons behind my struggles.

I been wasting through a half life
I've been existing in a life that's unfulfilling and not real.

Me
Myself, my problems, my pain.