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U. Srinivas / M. Brook / D. Sylvian Lyrics

I gotta get through this shit (strait up)
I need to endure and overcome the challenges and difficulties that I am facing, without any reservations or sugarcoating.

Mama told me that there would be days like this (strait up)
My mother warned me that life can be tough and unpredictable, and that I should be prepared for hardships and disappointments.

You know it's easy to forget what my purpose is (strait up)
Sometimes, I lose sight of my goals and aspirations, and I need to remind myself of my purpose and passion in life.

Just when I feel like everything's cool My drama starts to surface (strait up)
Whenever I start to feel content and at ease, my personal problems and conflicts tend to resurface and cause me stress and anxiety.

And all that drama it's hard to not let it blind you You gotta put that fake shit behind you Don't let your enemies remind of that time you fucked up My boy would've told you to shut the fuck up (strait up)
It's challenging to not let my personal issues consume my thoughts and emotions, and I need to let go of superficial or insincere relationships. I should not allow my adversaries to dwell on my past mistakes or shortcomings, and I should be wary of people who are not genuine or loyal to me.

I see fools laughing and I wanna cry I see fools living it up and I wanna die Shit I feel like I got one foot in the grave already I feel like Jesus is out to get me Test me, and watch me fail But I know it's not too late for me He told me there's more out there than just hate for me
Sometimes, I feel envious or depressed when I see other people enjoying themselves or succeeding, and I feel like my life is coming to an end. I even doubt my faith and wonder if God is punishing me. However, I still believe that I can overcome my struggles and find a brighter future, and I know that love and goodness exist in the world.

I see you on a painted road and I miss you I see can't see you but I feel you, I feel your soul, you know this No matter what I know you still have my back Yeah, I know where you're at
I envision a path or journey that I shared with someone special, even though I cannot physically see or talk to them. Nevertheless, I sense their presence and emotional support, and I trust that they are still loyal and caring towards me.

I love everything, I lost everything I want everything, I lose everything I hate everything (strait up) Yeah, I know where you're at
My feelings towards life and the world are conflicted and ambivalent. Sometimes, I am happy and optimistic, while other times, I am devastated and negative. Nevertheless, I still feel a connection and understanding with the person I addressed earlier.

I can't find you, I can't see you, I can't find you Why? back up shut up disappear What? shut up wake up I'm over here what?
I am trying to locate or contact the person who I miss and who supports me, but I am having difficulty and growing frustrated. I want them to stop being so loud or distracting and to reveal their present location.

Yeah I woke up and I and cursed the day (strait up) I woke up and I prayed for this pain in my chest to go away Jesus he just laughed at me and said my life was a tragedy And I was lost for all eternity Say nigga' why you forsaken me?
I woke up feeling resentful and unhappy about my life, and I wanted my emotional suffering to end. However, I felt like my faith was mocking me and asserting that I was doomed to misery and despair.

Maybe you're breaking my heart (strait up) If I could go back and start over again And have one good friend Shit I'd take that shit to the top (strait up) And never stop (strait up) Bring that shit back again yeah damn Just one good friend I've over here come back now and show me how I don't care anymore I can't, I can't take it, close to the edge And I'm breaking down Yeah you see me breaking down
I feel like my heart and spirit are shattered and vulnerable, and I yearn to have a chance to rewrite my past and find a true companion who believes in me. If I could be blessed with someone who supports and motivates me, I would work hard and persist endlessly towards success and happiness. I feel hopeless and close to losing control of my emotions and sanity.

Everyday another liar, here comes another thief Prepare yourself for much more sorrow Depend on much more grief
I encounter more and more people who are dishonest or deceitful, leading to greater disappointment and distrust. Therefore, I need to expect more troubles and distress in the future.

Wake up, get up, walk away! Why, why!
I urge myself to wake up from my negative thoughts and emotions, to get up and be active, and to leave behind harmful or toxic situations. I question why I am even suffering and struggling in the first place.