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V.i.J Lyrics

I'm in love with the thought of her
I am infatuated with the idea of this person.

But I don't really know what that means
I am uncertain about my feelings and my understanding of them.

Maybe I'm just lonely
Perhaps my attachment to this person is a result of my isolation.

Or I'm impatient and I want it to end
It's possible that I want to move on from this situation quickly.

I want the world to revolve around her
I desire to prioritize this person as the center of my existence.

And make sure she feels happy with me
It is important to me that this person is content with our relationship.

But that's not the way the world works
I realize that this ideal is unrealistic and unlikely to be fulfilled.

Nobody's happy at least that's what it seems
It appears that happiness is not easily attainable and may not exist at all.

I wanna see what the hell she thinks
I am desperate to understand this person's thoughts and feelings.

I wanna know what is wrong with me
I am curious about my own flaws and shortcomings that might impact this relationship.

But even if I don't seem insane
Despite my outward behavior, I may still be struggling internally with my emotions and thoughts.

I sit alone and go crazy
My loneliness feeds my anxiety and emotional instability.

I feel insane, maybe
I am uncertain about my own mental state.

I'll go insane if I stay here
Continuing down this path may lead to my mental and emotional breakdown.

I need you babe, maybe
It's possible that this person is my only support and comfort.

I wanna feel what I did back then
I long for the simplicity and naivety of childhood love and emotions.

When love was simple and I was a kid
My previous experiences with love were uncomplicated and easy to understand.

Then I got older my days grew thin
As I matured, my understanding of love and my experiences with it became more complex and difficult to navigate.

Only a teen but I already feel dead
Despite my youth, I am drained and exhausted by my emotions and the intensity of my feelings.

Don't know what is wrong or right
I have difficulty distinguishing between what is ethical and what is not in this situation.

What if this is all a dream
I am uncertain of the reality of my own experiences and emotions.

Maybe I'm just crazy
It's possible that my mental and emotional state is not stable or normal.

I never know what to think
My thoughts and feelings are constantly in flux and it's difficult for me to feel settled or grounded.

We live in the future
We exist in a time and place where new opportunities and possibilities exist.

Where the world isn't so black and white
The complexities and nuances of life defy easy categorization or understanding.

We live in the present
We are currently experiencing life and its challenges in the here and now.

We give each other the gift of life
We grant each other companionship and support during our difficult journey through existence.

We live in the world before any other
We are part of a long line of people who have tried to live fulfilling lives, and we continue that tradition.