Pebbles
Vagabond Mafia Lyrics
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Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
You ain’t listen
And it ain’t hard to tell
Like this written in brail
I want you to hear me
Without havin to yell
Without me strainin my voice
Without me cursin as well
Without me endin up just givin up
And sayin to hell
With all the love that
I showed you
I can’t get over this guilt
I’m still feelin like I owe you
You ain’t showin me nothin
I swear that I don’t even know you
Poppin all those pills
To keep a blurry brain
But addiction hit you hard
Just like a hurricane
Yeah I tried to do somethin
But instead I got pushed away
You was my rock
Now you a pebble in the driveway
We all lookin for a way to
Fight the pain
You could go and self medicate
To try to find an escape
There’s always easy ways
But the drugs they just take
And you ain’t gettin no better
See the fear up on your face
Man I saw you drink
Up your emotions
10 Years old I’m thinkin it’s my fault
Tears be flowin like an ocean
Ever since a youngen
All I wanted was to help
Instead I seen you struggle
Dropping weight
You cuttin notches in yo belt
Yeah, I regret it
But instead of drownin myself there
I saved myself
Man that’s real
21 Years old and
I be fighting just to feel
Im prayin that this shit don’t get you killed
And that’s real
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
Sorry I know I been duckin your calls
But there’s more to this shit
Than I’ve been givin off
I’m goin through it all
I feel the tension between us
I’m on a mission to get cleaner
Don’t know if you can sense the change in my demeanor
It's just
It’s killing me slowly
It holds me
And won’t let me go
Feels like it owns me
Controls me
I swear it’s gettin old
Thought I was better
Could handle the things it put me through
I never knew the pain I was causin
I was too far consumed
Wrapped around her finger
Stuck to that shit like glue
When I’m around her I’m triggered
And don’t know what to do
I’ve never experienced a love that’s quite like you
With your funny ways to bring me higher when I’m feelin blue
I’ve been sober for some time now
But temptation still lingers
It's stuck inside of my mind now
Every day it deepens
I feel myself headin back down into these dark roads
These whiskey waters I tread in when I feel like I’m all alone
Don’t want to be a bother
Just wanna let you know
You never caused this problem
Just don’t know how to cope
Wish I was smarter
Be the role model you need for growth
Cause we grew up without a father
I know that pain, too
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
You goin down a bad road
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hopin that you come home
Look I know you feelin lost
I get it more than you would know
But what I’m sayin is
You gotta give yourself some room to grow
You boxin yourself in
I wanna break it apart
The thought of you alone out there
Is breakin my heart
Like fuck
Can we just kick it like we used to
I just wanna be here
I don’t wanna make a new you
The process ain’t an overnight
But you can’t get discouraged
You can’t starve your brain
And then expect it to flourish
But hey
No pressure tho
I just wanna show you
That I’m right next to ya tho
Always got a place to go
Whenever you be feelin low
Ain’t gotta do it on your own
That’s healin
I just wanna show you that your
Voice is worth hearin
Moms and me been cryin
Worried bout
Where you be steerin
But you keep that hurt tucked deep
I’m sorry if those words cut deep
But it’s somethin that I must speak
Hopin that you come home
The lyrics of Vagabond Mafia's song "Pebbles" delve deep into the struggles of addiction, guilt, and the desire for redemption and connection. The repeated motif of going down a bad road and praying it's not a dead end reflects the uncertainty and fear of the consequences of one's actions. The singer expresses a sense of helplessness and desperation in trying to reach out to someone who is spiraling down a destructive path, hoping that they will find their way back home.
The lyrics highlight the frustration of not being heard or understood by the person they care about, symbolized by the comparison to reading braille and the strain of trying to communicate without success. The singer grapples with feelings of guilt and responsibility for the other person's struggles, showcasing a deep sense of empathy and the weight of unmet expectations and dashed hopes.
The imagery of addiction, self-medication, and emotional turmoil paints a vivid picture of inner conflict and the cyclical nature of destructive behaviors. The mention of self-harm and substance abuse underscores the pain and chaos that can come from trying to cope with internal struggles. The singer reminisces about their past efforts to help, feeling regret for not being able to prevent the downward spiral of the other person.
Ultimately, the lyrics convey a message of love, support, and a plea for understanding and forgiveness. The singer acknowledges their own battles with temptation and the ongoing struggle to maintain sobriety, mirroring the complexities and challenges of personal growth and healing. The song ends with a poignant plea for the other person to come home, to find their way back from the darkness and to know they are not alone in their journey towards recovery and self-discovery.
Line by Line Meaning
You goin down a bad road
You are headed towards a troubling path
Prayin that it's not a dead end
Hoping it's not a point of no return
Hopin that you come home
Hoping you find your way back
You ain’t listen
Your lack of attention is evident
And it ain’t hard to tell
It's not difficult to see
But I want you to feel me
I want you to understand my emotions
Like this written in brail
Even if it's not explicitly stated
I want you to hear me
I want you to listen to me
Without havin to yell
Without raising my voice
Without me strainin my voice
Without putting in excessive effort
Without me cursin as well
Without getting angry
Without me endin up just givin up
Without reaching a point of surrender
And sayin to hell
Resorting to negativity
With all the love that I showed you
Despite all the affection I gave
I can’t get over this guilt
I struggle to shake off this sense of wrongdoing
I’m still feelin like I owe you
I still feel a debt to you
You ain’t showin me nothin
You are not revealing anything to me
I swear that I don’t even know you
I feel like I don't recognize you
Poppin all those pills
Taking a substantial amount of medication
To keep a blurry brain
In order to maintain a hazy mental state
But addiction hit you hard
However, addiction has affected you severely
Just like a hurricane
Similar to a destructive natural disaster
Yeah I tried to do somethin
I made an effort
But instead I got pushed away
Yet, I was met with resistance
You was my rock
You were my source of strength
Now you a pebble in the driveway
Now you seem insignificant
We all lookin for a way to
We are all searching for a solution to
Fight the pain
Combat the suffering
You could go and self medicate
You might resort to self-medication
To try to find an escape
To seek relief
There’s always easy ways
There are always simpler options
But the drugs they just take
However, drugs only offer temporary relief
And you ain’t gettin no better
And you are not improving
See the fear up on your face
Observing the anxiety in your expression
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Joseph Timmins, Kalani Ray
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