Asylum
Vended Lyrics

Heart pumping the madness
My heart is racing uncontrollably due to my madness and unstable mental state.

Dilutions leading the status
My diluted thoughts and beliefs are leading me to this current unstable state of mind.

Life's nothing but a lie
My life feels like a complete deception and falsehood, with no sense of truth or authenticity.

God couldn't be so blind
I find it hard to believe that God would not see my suffering and give me some kind of relief or guidance.

There's blood inside my throat
I feel like I am being choked by my own emotions to the point where I can taste blood in my throat.

I'm in a fucking choke hold
I feel like I am being suffocated and restrained by my own thoughts and emotions, unable to break free from their grasp.

Oh my, I cried
I feel overwhelmed and distressed, to the point of tears.

Staring in the face of death tonight
I feel like I am confronting my own mortality and the fear of dying tonight.

Denied my right
I feel like I am being unfairly denied something I deserve or am entitled to, such as love or happiness.

To see a love and not a bite
I want to experience real love and intimacy, rather than being treated like an object to be used and consumed by others.

I'm numb succumbed
I feel completely numb and paralyzed by the weight of my problems, unable to escape or find relief.

To the shit my family overcome
I am burdened by the same problems and traumas that my family has faced and struggled with in the past.

I'm done now run
I feel like I have reached a breaking point and need to escape from my current reality to find some kind of refuge or safety.

Fill me up asylum
I am calling out for help and hope to find sanctuary in a place where I can find peace and regain my sanity.

I am not a pawn in the game
I refuse to be a victim of the systems and structures that have oppressed me and kept me down.

I'm just your fucking slave
I feel like I am being exploited and controlled by society and the people around me, with no power or control over my own life.

Filled up with so much rage
I am consumed by feelings of anger and resentment towards the world and the people who have hurt me.

Caught up inside this cage
I feel trapped and constrained by the circumstances of my life, with no way of breaking free or changing my situation.

You think I don't know pain
Others underestimate the extent of my suffering and the pain that I have endured throughout my life.

I feel like I'm going insane
I feel like I am losing my grip on reality and slipping into a state of madness and chaos.

Nothing will change and that's okay
I have lost faith in the possibility of change and improvement in my life, and have accepted this as my fate.

'Cause everything just feels the same
My life feels monotonous and stagnant, with no variation or progress from day to day.

When you end up like me
I am warning others about the dangers of falling into a similar state of despair and desperation as myself.

Just withered away, your gonna feel the decay
If you do end up like me, you will feel the slow and painful decline of your physical, mental, and emotional health over time.

Oh my
An exclamation of shock, disbelief, or fear.

I died
I feel like a part of me has already died or been lost, and that I am no longer fully alive or present in the world.