Beginning
W. S. Merwin Lyrics
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'Ey, this is the Noise Wizard
Representing the Pain Management Group
Healing spells gon' take you to another place, another space
Where everything outside of you is simply just a word away
It was numbered days, I was a world away
I was never willing to admit how much id seen you change
Its hard to tell the difference when i see your name
Feel like I've lost a friend
Feel like i broke the frame
I'm sure you tell the story like I should feel ashamed
From a past life, to a private message
How do you feel about conversations you've reflected?
You think its hidden well but I've seen all your fucking weapons
You used them on me every chance you got, now let that set in
Let that set in
I knew triggers and the traces
When i let you threaten
I knew way you'd sum it up
If things got out of hand'n'd
I knew the choices that you made were to avoid abandon
But whats of more advantage?
Our time on my mind whats that represent?
And you seem'n less kind, whats that represent?
I wont see you again
Never seen you before
Only saw this ghost
So what you lie'n for?
What?
What you lie'n for?
Now who really set this off?
You said we wasted five years
Well I wasted all my tears on you
And I wont be getting nothing back
Learned a little, life's like that
You had my devotion
You faked the vibrations
While we were in motion
And you had the urge to set me down right?
Standing on the ground height
Holding me with less life
Sinking past the last night
I confused your love for me and honestly
Your lack of life was killing me
A blast of light from your disease
Lie to me with honesty
Tell me how this life could be if we were free
To make mistakes and mend the dream
To live it up and make believe
That things are really as they seem
What's that represent?
Our time on my mind, whats the represent?
And you seem'n less kind, what's that represent?
I wont see you again
Never seen you before
Only saw this ghost
So what you lie'n for?
Wha'?
What you lie'n for?
The lyrics of W. S. Merwin's song "Beginning" delve into feelings of betrayal, loss, and self-reflection. The singer, identified as the Noise Wizard representing the Pain Management Group, introduces the song with a sense of urgency and power, setting the tone for a raw and emotional exploration. The opening lines convey a sense of magic or healing spells that have the ability to transport one to a different realm where external factors lose their significance.
As the lyrics progress, the singer navigates through a tumultuous emotional journey, grappling with the pain of change and the uncertainty of their own feelings. There is a sense of ambiguity in their emotions - questioning whether they are feeling well or in pain, struggling to differentiate between the two when confronted with the presence of a past friend who has seemingly evolved into someone unrecognizable. The singer reflects on feeling like they have lost a friend and perhaps even blaming themselves for the perceived breakdown of the relationship.
The mention of triggers, traces, and reflections hint at a deeper understanding of the complexities within the relationship, suggesting past conflicts and emotional manipulation. There is a sense of betrayal and realization that the other person had been using emotional "weapons" against them, leading to a sense of hurt and resignation. The singer confronts the other person's actions, questioning their motives and pondering the advantage of their choices, ultimately seeking clarity and closure.
Towards the end of the lyrics, there is a confrontation of the reality of the relationship, with the singer expressing feelings of waste and disillusionment. The emotional toll of the relationship is palpable as the singer acknowledges the pain of devotion not being reciprocated, leading to a realization that their love was perhaps misunderstood or unappreciated. The lyrics culminate in a plea for honesty and a desire to understand the complexities of the past, exploring the idea of freedom to make mistakes and rebuild shattered dreams. The repeated refrain questioning the representation of time and kindness emphasizes the search for meaning and closure in a relationship that has left the singer feeling lost and deceived.
Line by Line Meaning
Healing spells gon' take you to another place, another space
The power of healing will transport you to a different state of being
Where everything outside of you is simply just a word away
The external world is easily influenced by your thoughts and actions
It was numbered days, I was a world away
Our time together was limited, and I was emotionally distant
I was never willing to admit how much id seen you change
I didn't want to acknowledge the extent of your transformation
Feeling well or am i feeling pain?
Uncertain if I am at peace or in distress
Its hard to tell the difference when i see your name
Your presence confuses my emotions
Feel like I've lost a friend
I sense a loss of companionship
Feel like i broke the frame
It seems like I've shattered our relationship
I'm sure you tell the story like I should feel ashamed
You portray our history in a way that invites guilt
From a past life, to a private message
From previous experiences to personal communication
How do you feel about conversations you've reflected?
What emotions arise when you think back on our discussions?
You think its hidden well but I've seen all your fucking weapons
You believe your motives are concealed, but I am aware of your harmful intentions
You used them on me every chance you got, now let that set in
You manipulated situations to your advantage, consider the impact
I knew triggers and the traces
I recognized the signs and remnants of your influence
When i let you threaten
Despite allowing your intimidation tactics
You had my devotion
I gave you my loyalty and commitment
You faked the vibrations
You pretended to resonate with me
While we were in motion
During our relationship's progression
And you had the urge to set me down right?
Did you have the desire to end our connection?
Standing on the ground height
Facing reality at its peak
Holding me with less life
Grasping onto me with diminishing vitality
Sinking past the last night
Descending beyond our final encounter
I confused your love for me and honestly
I mistook your affection for genuine care
Your lack of life was killing me
Your emotional emptiness was slowly destroying me
A blast of light from your disease
An intense revelation from your destructive tendencies
Lie to me with honesty
Deceive me with truthfulness
Tell me how this life could be if we were free
Imagine the possibilities if we were liberated from constraints
To make mistakes and mend the dream
To learn from errors and repair our aspirations
To live it up and make believe
To embrace life to the fullest and indulge in fantasies
That things are really as they seem
That reality aligns with appearances
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Bryce Yelle
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