Spellbound
WVNDER Lyrics

I know I met you at the wrong time
Although I recognize that our timing is off, I cannot control my emotions, and I struggle with managing my own thoughts

But I can't schedule my feelings, and I'm no good at dealing with my own mind
I cannot control or predict when I will have strong emotions, and I struggle with managing my own thoughts and feelings

And its unconscious decisions that lead to our collision, but it's alright,
Our relationship struggles are often due to subconscious decisions and behaviors, but I try to convince myself that it's okay

That's how I lie to myself, cause when I begin to wonder, I end up going under
I deceive myself into thinking that everything is fine, but when I start to overthink and worry, I become overwhelmed

In a spellbind, so I try to remind myself to come back down
My worrying and anxiety puts me in a trance-like state, so I try to remind myself to calm down and come back to reality

I don't know if I'm ready to show the real me, most people find it overwhelming
I am not sure if I am prepared to reveal my true self, as most people find it too intense or difficult to handle

Try my best to keep my heart at arms length, but I always seem to find it hanging out of my sleeve
I attempt to keep my emotions and heart guarded, but they always end up spilling out and being on display

So I sit, hoping that you'll commit, but past relapse suggests that it's all unlikely
I wait and hope that you will commit to me, but my previous experiences indicate that it is not probable

And like before, I just can't ignore the fire burning me inside
Similar to previous times, I cannot ignore the intense passion and desire that I feel

Fall for you early
I quickly developed feelings for you

Watch you run out on me
I fear you leaving or abandoning our relationship

I can't hide my worries
My anxieties and concerns cannot be concealed or avoided

You notice everything
You are observant and able to pick up on my emotions and behavior

I don't know if I'll ever fall in love at the right time
I am unsure if I will ever experience love at the correct moment or stage in life

So I chose to stay caught up in a white lie
To avoid facing difficult truths, I deceive myself with a fabricated sense of reality

I don't know that you ever really wanted to be mine
I am uncertain if you truly desire to be in a relationship with me

Put on hold, like a letter that you won't write
Our relationship is postponed or stalled, like an unsent letter

So let it go, losing hope, I tumble out of the sunlight
I release my grip on our relationship, becoming discouraged and falling out of the good things in life

All alone, as I wander through the cold night
I feel lonely and lost, aimlessly moving through a dark and difficult time