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Willie and the Giant Lyrics

I did the dishes today
I accomplished a simple household task, but it doesn't change the fact that I hate myself.

And I hate who I am
I have a deep sense of self-loathing, which is a constant struggle for me.

I hope that’s not too forward
I'm worried that expressing these feelings might be too much for the person I'm speaking to.

I’m praying every word that I say
I'm hoping that the words that come out of my mouth don't make things worse.

Won’t kill the mood or dismantle
I don't want to ruin the fragile balance we have in our relationship.

Our fragile foundation
Our relationship is precarious and could easily crumble.

It’s been a long few weeks
I've been struggling with these feelings for a while now.

Sorry my apartment reeks
I've been neglecting my living space and it shows.

I’ve been neglecting my upkeep
I haven't been taking care of myself, both physically and emotionally.

And I just can’t sleep
I'm struggling with insomnia, which only adds to my feelings of anxiety and despair.

I hope my snoring doesn’t keep you up
I'm concerned that my physical presence is a burden on others, even in small ways.

So give me that bottle of gin
I turn to substance abuse as a way to cope with my emotional pain and self-loathing.

I don’t know who I am
I have a deep sense of identity crisis and feel lost in my own skin.

But I know where I’ve been
Despite my confusion about my identity, I have some sense of my past experiences and what has led me to this point.

So fuck off
I'm feeling angry and defensive, lashing out at others as a way to protect myself.

Being alone is my biggest fear
I'm terrified of being alone with my thoughts and feelings.

But I don’t feel at home here
Despite being with others, I still feel disconnected and out of place in the world.

No come back
I'm pushing others away in a misguided attempt to protect myself from getting hurt.

I’m on crack
I'm using drugs as a way to escape my reality and numb the pain.

I need somebody, please
Despite my attempts to push others away, I still desperately need human connection and support.

I’m crazy
I'm struggling with mental health issues and feel like I'm losing my grip on reality.

And I’m dressed my Sunday best
Despite my inner turmoil, I'm trying to present a polished and put-together image to the outside world.

In these little vignettes inside my mind
I have vivid and detailed fantasies or memories that play out in my head, which can be both comforting and distressing.

It’s the platitudes and shitty attitudes
I'm often bombarded with cliches and negative messages from the world around me, which only exacerbate my mental health struggles.

That I always seem to find
Despite my efforts to avoid negativity, it seems to follow me wherever I go.

But I mind the bumps and bruises
Despite the challenges I face, I'm still trying to hold on and persevere.

As I pass over the scars
I'm trying to move past my past traumas and emotional wounds, but they still have a profound impact on me.

Eventually, you’ll find out who you are
Despite my current struggles, I have some hope that I'll eventually figure out my identity and find some peace.

But I hate being in my skin
My sense of self-loathing and identity crisis are overwhelming and pervasive.