Oxygin
Witt Lowry Lyrics

I know I need to learn to live with all the things I can′t change
I understand that certain things are out of my control and I need to accept that fact and keep moving forward.

I hate the fact that I feel nothing or I'm reeling in pain
I strongly dislike the fact that I feel numb or constantly consumed by pain.

I need to shake this fucking habit, so I try, but I can′t
I acknowledge that I have a serious addiction that I need to overcome, but despite my best efforts, I am unable to break this destructive cycle.

And I look down on other addicts when we're one and the same
Despite being an addict myself, I often judge others for their struggles instead of empathizing with them and recognizing that we share similar struggles.

Remember back, I'm pushin′ twenty, those were simpler times
Looking back to when I was younger, I miss the innocence and simplicity of my life before addiction consumed me.

That′s when we met, and ever since you're never far from my mind
I associate my addiction with a particular person or substance that I think about constantly and can't seem to escape from.

I broke my ankle playin′ ball, and so it's you I′m prescribed
After an injury, I was prescribed a medication for the pain that ultimately became a gateway to my addiction.

And even through all of the pain, you make me feel I could fly
Despite causing me harm, the substance or person I associate with my addiction gives me a false sense of euphoria and freedom from my problems.

A couple weeks, and now you're gone and now I′m feelin' the stress
After running out of my supply or losing access to the catalyst for my addiction, I am overwhelmed with stress and anxiety.

I always wanted to feel something, maybe nothing is best
I was desperate for some sense of fulfillment or excitement in my life, but now I realize that numbness may be better than constantly chasing a high.

My friends and family start to question if I'm feelin′ depressed
Those close to me are starting to recognize the signs of my addiction and wonder if I am spiraling into depression because of it.

But I don′t really give a damn, just put me back on the meds
Despite my loved ones' concerns, I am solely focused on getting my next fix and am not interested in seeking help or change.

I've been lost in my head
I feel consumed by my addiction and am unable to break free from my own destructive thoughts and impulses.

My homie Jack said he dealt with the same shit
Someone close to me has gone through similar experiences with addiction and understands what I am going through.

He said he started drinkin′ to deal with the pain quick
My friend shared how he coped with his addiction and advises me to turn to alcohol as a temporary solution to numb my pain.

All you need is a fifth and it's cool to remain lit
My friend suggests a specific amount of alcohol to drink to achieve the desired effect of feeling numb and in control of my emotions.

So he handed me a bottle, said, "Take about eight sips"
My friend provides me with the means to cope with my addiction by giving me access to alcohol and specific instructions for how to consume it for maximum effect.

I′m faded, but I wanna feel straight numb
Despite consuming alcohol, I am still seeking a stronger sense of detachment from my problems and am willing to take further action to feel completely numb.

So I drink the rest of the bottle, liquor burnin' my gums
I drink the entire bottle of alcohol, even though it is causing physical pain or discomfort, because I am desperate for relief from my emotional pain.

Woke up the next day at around a quarter to one
After consuming alcohol, I wake up the next day feeling disoriented and possibly unaware of what happened the previous night.

My peers would say that "Man I had fun, right?"
Other people who may have been around me during my drunken state might believe I was having a good time and that my actions were not problematic.

Feel the weight lift off me
After numbing myself through alcohol, I experience a brief moment of relief from the emotional burden of my addiction.

Someone tell my mom I'm sorry
I am aware that my actions and addiction are causing emotional pain for my loved ones and I wish to express my regret and apologize for my behavior.

They tell me "Take a pill" until I feel alright
My doctor or others who may not fully understand the extent of my addiction may suggest taking medication as the solution, instead of addressing the underlying issue of my addiction.

The present day been feelin' sick, think I'm just bidin′ my time
Currently, I am experiencing feelings of sickness or discomfort, but I am choosing to wait it out instead of seeking help or making a change.

I take a shot of somethin′ strong to keep that shit off my mind
To temporarily numb myself from the emotional pain of my addiction, I turn to alcohol or another substance to achieve a brief reprieve from my problems.

All my friends started families and they left you behind
I feel isolated and disconnected from those around me who have started families and have seemingly matured beyond the point of addiction.

And here I am drinkin' any can or bottle I find
I am willing to consume any type of alcohol or substance I can get my hands on in order to numb my pain and continue my addiction.

My body took you in as blood and so we′re never apart
My addiction is so deeply rooted that it feels like it is a part of me and impossible to separate from my identity.

Some real shit, you the closest someone's been to my heart
Despite causing me harm, the substance or person I associate with my addiction has become deeply entwined with my emotions and sense of self.

But just like everything I love, you fuckin′ tear me apart
My addiction causes me pain and suffering despite initially providing me with feelings of euphoria and escape.

I wanna be there for my son, daughter, wife—I mean my ex-wife now
I wish to be a responsible family member and partner, but my addiction has caused me to lose my wife and face challenges in my relationships with my children.

I guess that time really flies when you′re drunk on the couch
I am beginning to realize how much time has passed while I have been consumed by my addiction and feel regret for how I have spent that time.

I wanna shake this fuckin' habit, I just don't know how
I recognize that my addiction is damaging and harmful, but am unsure of how to break free from it.

So you would love to see me sick until I almost drown
My addiction is personified as a negative force that wants to consume me until I am close to death or destruction.

And so you keep me on the brink of barely livin′ and death
My addiction is destructive and harmful and is keeping me in a state of barely living or on the brink of death.

As long as I'm alive, yeah, you know you're gettin′ my cheque
The addictive substance or person is feeding off my pain and destruction and continues to benefit from my addiction as long as I am alive to provide for it.

You pray my son and daughter will follow me in my steps
My addiction is so powerful that it wants those closest to me to also become consumed by it and follow in my destructive path.

You'll create our loves a fact that I′m broke and broken and in debt
My addiction will lead to financial ruin and cause me to become emotionally and physically broken, affecting every aspect of my life.

Can go a day without food, I can't go a day without you
My addiction has surpassed my basic need for nourishment and has become my sole focus in life.

When I try, I get the shakes ′til my face turns blue
When I attempt to go without the addictive substance or person, I begin to experience physical withdrawal symptoms and am unable to function normally.

Lost my job, wife, life for a bottle of booze
My addiction has caused me to lose everything that was once important to me, all for the sake of consuming alcohol or another substance.

You promised you would make me happy, we know that's not true
The substance or person I associate with my addiction falsely promised me happiness and fulfillment, but ultimately led me down a path of destruction.

I tried every drug in the book, but they never hit me the same
Despite seeking alternative methods for coping with my addiction, nothing has provided the same level of comfort or numbness as the substance or person I am addicted to.

I told my doc that I'm down, he put some pills in my name
My doctor prescribed medication to help me cope with my addiction, but this is not addressing the root of the problem and may even further feed my addiction.

It doesn't matter the problem, the fix is always the same
Despite a variety of underlying issues that may have contributed to my addiction, the solution seems to always be the same: consuming the addictive substance or being with the person I associate with my addiction.

Always takin' the easy route, like I'm never willin′ to change, damn
I am avoiding the difficult work of addressing my addiction and am taking the easy route by continuing to consume the addictive substance or be with the person I associate with my addiction.

Now blamin' everybody but me
I am placing the blame on others for my addiction, rather than taking personal responsibility and actively working to change my behavior.

With you inside my system, everybody used to love me
When I am under the influence of the addictive substance or person, I am more likable and charismatic, leading others to praise and love me.

But now my friends, family, my kids, they can′t even trust me
My addiction has caused my loved ones to lose their faith in me and feel unable to trust me due to my destructive behavior.

Been losin' all my control and I let you fuckin′ become me
I am losing control of my life and identity and am becoming consumed by my addiction to the point where it feels like it is a part of me.

No more! I said no fuckin' more!
I am making a declaration to break free from my addiction and take control of my life.

I know you think I'm lyin′, I said this to you before
My addiction has caused me to make false promises before and those around me may not believe my declarations to change and recover.

This time I'm fuckin' ready, it's time to show you the door
Despite past failed attempts, I am determined to overcome my addiction and officially separate myself from the destructive force that is controlling my life.

This life is mine, it never was yours!
I am taking back control of my life from my addiction and declaring that I am the one in charge of my own destiny.