Shake
Xavier & Nqobilé Lyrics

Down to final dollar
I have reached a point where I only have one dollar left

I can feel the chills running down my spinal collar
I am overwhelmed with fear and anxiety

Living in these ills I can't fight denial longer
I am trapped in difficult circumstances and can no longer deny the reality

Even when I'm lying still I can't help but spiral father
Even when I am trying to stay calm, my thoughts continue to spiral out of control

A goner
I feel defeated and hopeless

My mama always told me to diss 'em and prove wrong
My mother taught me to disregard others' negativity and prove them wrong

But look at how we living the system be too strong
However, the oppressive system makes it difficult for us to succeed

And judging by my life I been doomed since I was three
Based on my life experiences, I have felt marked for failure since a very young age

So it's only right the ground would consume a cursed seed
Therefore, it seems fitting that I, a doomed individual, would be swallowed by the harsh reality of life

In school I was a quiet kid, my granny was the highest bid
During my school years, I was shy and reserved, and my grandmother played a significant role in my upbringing

Class and plantation, we the product of environment
Our social class and upbringing have shaped who we are as individuals

With no one batting for me I would toil in my silence
Without any support or advocate, I had to work hard in silence

They said I'm good for labor, not a lawyer or a scientist
People have limited my potential to manual labor rather than considering me capable of pursuing professions like law or science

Couldn't pay for books but still I noted
I couldn't afford textbooks, but I still made sure to take notes and educate myself

All my teachers was some crooks, they put me with slow kids
All my teachers were dishonest, as they placed me in classes with academically slower students

And now you know I'm worse off, I'm ready to go-get
As a result, my educational opportunities have been hindered, and I am now determined to seize any chance for a better life

Why you looking like you Sherlock? I'm hollering 'no shit!'
Don't act like a detective, it's obvious and I'm expressing my frustration

And I'm so done 'aspiring'
I am tired of merely aspiring and not seeing any progress

Fuck a lil job ain't nobody be hiring
Forget about finding a small job, nobody is offering employment

My life expiring
I feel like my life is coming to an end

I ain't got options and lord I'm so tired
I don't have any choices, and I am exhausted

Hit my cousin line, I tell him to give me work
I contact my cousin and ask him to provide me with illegal activities

Now my millimeter nine, but fuck it my stomach hurt
Now I have a 9mm gun, but I am willing to do whatever it takes because I am desperate and struggling

Burner in my drawls, I'm knowing what's at stake
I am concealing a gun in my underwear, fully aware of the risks involved

But, put the boy on, do whatever it take
But to change my situation, I am willing to do anything necessary

I'll rob, I'll jug, I'll loot, I'll steal
I am prepared to engage in criminal activities such as robbery, fraud, looting, and theft

'Cause at this point, that's how I feel
Because at this stage of desperation, that is how I truly feel

Do something to make some shake
I need to take action to bring about a significant change

And I'll mob, I'll cut, I'll shoot to kill
I am willing to join violent groups, harm others, and even take lives

Without a thought, trust that I will
I won't hesitate and I am fully committed to doing so

It's the first lick when the verse hit
This is the initial moment of success when the verse is delivered powerfully

And I don't care who it's versus
I have no concern about who or what I am opposing

But the sweat drip, I'm invested
However, I am fully involved and dedicated, even if it makes me sweat

And the worst is: I'm nervous
Furthermore, the most difficult aspect is that I am filled with anxiety

Whisper little pray-er at least a half-sermon
I silently offer a small prayer or some words of wisdom, even if it's just a short sermon

I know I'm doing wrong but Lord just have mercy
I am aware that my actions are morally wrong, but I beg for mercy from a higher power

Ain't got 50 Cent and I'm down to last dime
I am financially struggling and only have a small amount of money left

So I gotta get rich or I'm down to die trying
Therefore, I must become wealthy or else I am willing to risk my life in the pursuit of success

I'll bring a fucking massacre like my first name was Curtis
I will cause chaos and destruction, just like the infamous rapper 50 Cent (whose real name is Curtis Jackson)

Right before I self-destruct, it's shady my life is curtains
Similar to 50 Cent's album 'Before I Self-Destruct', my life is akin to a dramatic ending

And I'm so done conspiring
I am tired of planning and scheming

My life is pained and the time has came
My life is filled with suffering, and the moment has arrived

They ask me if I'm riding
People inquire if I am willing to stand up and fight

And 'yes' I keep saying, in truth I'm ashamed
And while I keep saying 'yes', the truth is, I am ashamed of my circumstances

Mama open door, she asking if I'm alright
My mother opens the door and asks if I am okay

My gun in the bottom drawer, I keep it out of her sight
I hide my gun in the bottom drawer to ensure my mother doesn't see it

I kissed her on her head, I tell her to go to bed
I show affection to my mother by kissing her on the head and encourage her to go to sleep

Last thing that I said: 'Mom I'm better off dead'
However, before she leaves, I express my belief that I would be better off dead

I'll rob, I'll jug, I'll loot, I'll steal
I am prepared to engage in criminal activities such as robbery, fraud, looting, and theft

'Cause at this point, that's how I feel
Because at this stage of desperation, that is how I truly feel

Do something to make some shake
I need to take action to bring about a significant change

And I'll mob, I'll cut, I'll shoot to kill
I am willing to join violent groups, harm others, and even take lives

Without a thought, trust that I will
I won't hesitate and I am fully committed to doing so