Infinity
Ydille/ E. Smidt Lyrics

Said that we were done girl who you fooling
You said our relationship is over, but are you really fooling yourself?

We don't even talk we just play music
Our communication has become limited to just playing music together.

She know all the words to all the songs
She is well-versed in all the songs we play together.

And she sings them like she wrote them all alone
She sings the songs with such passion and conviction as if she wrote them herself.

Yeah aye yeah I don't know
I am unsure about what to do.

Getting pulled in one direction
I am being pulled in one direction, but I am not sure where I should go.

Fighting back is not an option
I feel like I cannot resist what is happening in my life.

I can't do it at this point
At this moment, I feel like I cannot handle the situation.

I'm too weak
I don't feel strong enough to deal with this.

I keep thinking
My mind has been occupied with thoughts lately.

What am I meant to be?
What is my purpose in life?

I just wish I can keep myself away from me
I want to be able to escape from my own thoughts.

Cause sometimes I be way too toxic
At times, I can be very negative and that can be harmful.

So I take a ride I'm driving straight
To clear my head, I go for a drive.

I tell myself I'm never looking back at start
I promise myself that I will not dwell on the past.

But then I always take a u turn
However, I always end up going back to where I started.

I keep tearing myself apart
I keep hurting myself emotionally.

Keep tearing myself to shreds
I am causing myself a lot of pain and suffering.

I wanna just lay and rot
Sometimes I just want to give up and wallow in despair.

But I'm really not that soft
I am stronger than I give myself credit for.

I gotta just stand and act like I'm all fine
I have to put on a brave face and pretend that everything is okay.

But inside I'm walking on a line it's thin I might just jump off
Although I may appear composed, internally I am struggling to keep it together and fear that I may break down.

Lacking balance
I am feeling unsteady and out of sorts.

Slash me with the knife
I am in a lot of emotional pain and feel as though I am being stabbed.

I'm not a star no Dallas
I am not someone of prominence or fame, just an ordinary person.

What is fear?
I question what fear truly is and how it affects us.

Nothing clear
There is a lot of uncertainty surrounding fear.

I just want you here
I long for someone to be by my side during these difficult times.

Said that we were done girl who you fooling
You said our relationship is over, but are you really fooling yourself?

We don't even talk we just play music
Our communication has become limited to just playing music together.

She know all the words to all the songs
She is well-versed in all the songs we play together.

And she sings them like she wrote them all alone
She sings the songs with such passion and conviction as if she wrote them herself.