Zolita is an independent artist whose music blends R&B and dark pop, and lyrically draws on her experiences as a queer woman. She's built a loyal fanbase through her self-directed music videos, each of which have gone viral and garned millions of views online. Zolita is known for her distinct message and aesthetic, which has resonated with queer kids around the world.
Zolita gained viral success with the music video for "Explosion", which has over eight million views on YouTube as of May 2018. It was also listed on Billboard's list of "30 Lesbian Love Songs". Following its success, she released the music videos for the singles "Holy" (2016) and "Fight Like a Girl" (2017) directed by herself. On October 13, 2015 she released independently her debut extended play Immaculate Conception, and on May 18, 2018 she released her second extended play Sappho.
Mad
Zolita Lyrics
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You tell me it's red
Got visions of you
In someone else's bed
I see crimons flags
Signs that I misread
You keep telling me
That it's all in my head
So I believe
That everything I think
Is not what's happening and then you
Say my fears are wrong
My intuitions off
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad mad
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad
Never thought I'd lose my mind so bad
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad
3 in the morning
Wrapped in a warning
Feels like falling spiders crawling
Up my spine but I'm paralyzed
See a burning house and I'm trapped inside
Breath is on the window
You're outside watching me scream
Promise me it's just a dream
And say it's all in my head
So I believe
That everything I think
Is not what's happening and then you
Say my fears are wrong
My intuitions off
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad mad
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad
Never thought I'd lose my mind so bad
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad
Oh, there is something wrong with me
My friends say I should leave
But I'm too caught up in this twisted fucked up fantasy
And if there's no way out, if there is only doubt
I might have to tear you down
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad mad
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad
Never thought I'd lose my mind so bad
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad
In Zolita's song "Mad," she sings about feeling like she's losing her mind because her significant other is telling her one thing, but her intuition is telling her another. The song begins with the line "All I see is blue, you tell me it's red," which is a metaphor for her partner telling her that everything is fine, even though she can see that it's clearly not. She then goes on to explain that she has visions of her partner with someone else and sees crimson flags, which signifies warning signs that she misread. However, whenever she brings up her concerns, her partner dismisses it and tells her that it's all in her head.
Zolita then goes on to express her frustration with her situation, and her fear of losing her mind. She describes her experience as feeling like she's trapped inside a burning house, and her breath is on the window while her partner is outside looking in. She's asking for reassurance that what she's experiencing is just a dream, and that her fears are unfounded. However, her partner continues to dismiss her concerns, which only adds to her paranoia and spirals into madness.
Overall, the song is about the struggle of dealing with gaslighting, where someone makes you doubt your reality, and how it can lead to feelings of anxiety, confusion, and ultimately, madness.
Line by Line Meaning
All I see is blue
I feel lost and confused, unable to see things clearly
You tell me it's red
You're trying to convince me that what I see and feel is not real
Got visions of you
I can't stop thinking about you
In someone else's bed
I imagine you being intimate with someone else
I see crimons flags
I see warning signs that suggest something is not right
Signs that I misread
I may have misinterpreted things, but I'm still unsure
You keep telling me
You continue to gaslight me and deny any wrongdoing
That it's all in my head
You want me to doubt myself and my perceptions
So I believe
I start to doubt my own judgment and accept your version of reality
That everything I think
I start second-guessing myself and doubting my own thoughts
Is not what's happening and then you
You manipulate me into doubting my own reality and trusting yours
Say my fears are wrong
You dismiss my concerns and make me feel like I'm being irrational
My intuitions off
You make me feel like my gut instincts are faulty and unreliable
I think I'm going mad mad mad mad mad mad
I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality and going insane
Never thought I'd lose my mind so bad
I never imagined my mental state deteriorating to this extent
3 in the morning
I'm awake at an ungodly hour, plagued by intrusive thoughts
Wrapped in a warning
I feel like I'm in danger and being exposed to a threat
Feels like falling spiders crawling
I experience physical sensations of discomfort and anxiety
Up my spine but I'm paralyzed
Despite my fear, I feel helpless and unable to act
See a burning house and I'm trapped inside
I'm consumed by a sense of impending doom and feel powerless to escape
Breath is on the window
I'm hyperventilating and my breath is fogging up the window
You're outside watching me scream
You're indifferent to my distress and pain
Promise me it's just a dream
You belittle my suffering and offer false reassurance
And say it's all in my head
You insist that my experiences are not real and dismiss my trauma
My friends say I should leave
My loved ones are concerned about my well-being and advise me to get out of this toxic situation
But I'm too caught up in this twisted fucked up fantasy
Despite the evidence of abuse, I'm still holding onto a delusional hope that things will get better
And if there's no way out, if there is only doubt
I'm stuck in this cycle of abuse and uncertainty, unsure how to break free
I might have to tear you down
I may have to resort to extreme measures in order to protect myself and my sanity
Contributed by Dylan L. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@t_m_420
Wow, I love how catchy this is, yet so deep! It tackles the feeling of doubting yourself, while someone manipulates and gaslights you. Always know that your feelings are valid & trust your gut! It's usually always right! Some people are good at convincing you otherwise, but we're not as easily convinced when people tell us how amazing we are! For instance, you reading this right now, yes you! You are a beautiful human being! I know that I don't know you on a personal level, but the fact that we're all here on Zolita's beautiful song, spreading positivity, says a lot! You must have great taste in music & a sense of passion for understanding yourself and the world better.
@zolita
YES! Perfect interpretation.
@t_m_420
@ZOLITA thank you so much! I love how genuine your songs are! I can definitely feel your emotion 💜💜
@anajuliagurgel4647
wow this comment is everything i will ever need
@LeqendLashGraphics-sy8fd
@ZOLITA Hey Zolita! I want to supply the lossless version of this album. Can you help me?
@Supapandamonium
I completely lost it with this one. This one goes so hard! Zolita's feeding us so much tonight!
@mihaellamika584
I found myself in this song. It still hurts and I'm still mad at her. Thank you, this song helps me a lot.❤💜 🖤
@charlotteflowernight5359
I absolutely love the message and how you expressed the feeling of being manipulated by someone. The vibe of the chorus is great because it accurately represents the madness in your head when you don't know what to believe anymore. Total banger and masterpiece!
@jillylilly7502
Since I heard the snippet I knew this one would be my fav💖 good job Zoe :3💖
@camilacanavezes2559
the best song you’ve ever released!!!