Lobotomy
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One time I saw a kid jump off of a bridge
And it was crazy how it made me feel alive
I swore to myself I'd never ever want to die
But right now I'd rather overdose than cry
It's okay
Just sit back
Take a deep breath
And relax
When I'm dead I want the casket wide open
Casket wide open
Casket wide open
So you see the gaping hole inside my forehead
Because in my bathroom I had gave myself a D.I.Y. lobotomy
There was nothing else to live for except for
The weed that's on the floor and the money in my drawer
When I'm dead I want the casket wide open
Casket wide open for my D.I.Y. lobotomy
On my way home
I was drinking Coca-Cola as my heart was getting colder
It's never leaving for sure
And I don't doubt that there's no way out 'n so for this you need to know
When I'm dead I want the casket wide open
Casket wide open
Casket wide open
So you see the gaping hole inside my forehead
Because in my bathroom I had gave myself a D.I.Y. lobotomy
There was nothing else to live for except for
The weed that's on the floor and the money in my drawer




When I'm dead I want the casket wide open
Casket wide open for my D.I.Y. lobotomy

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of "Lobotomy" by b-UMB delve into dark themes of despair, numbness, and a desire to escape emotional pain. The song opens with a vivid image of witnessing a kid jump off a bridge and feeling alive in the aftermath of the shocking event. This experience triggers conflicting emotions within the singer, leading them to express their desire to avoid death while also contemplating the allure of an overdose as a release from emotional turmoil. The juxtaposition of feeling alive yet contemplating death sets the tone for the rest of the song.


The singer then reveals a sense of hopelessness and emptiness in their life, suggesting that they see no purpose beyond material possessions like weed and money. This is emphasized by the mention of a DIY lobotomy, a drastic and disturbing act symbolizing a desperate attempt to escape from inner torment. The repeated reference to wanting the casket wide open after death indicates a desire for their suffering and inner turmoil to be visible to the world, perhaps as a form of final expression or release from their struggles.


As the song progresses, the singer reflects on their numbness, symbolized by drinking Coca-Cola while feeling their heart grow colder. The repetition of the line "Casket wide open" reinforces the theme of wanting their inner pain to be exposed and understood even after death. The mention of a gaping hole inside their forehead from the self-inflicted lobotomy further underscores their inner emptiness and desperation for escape.


The lyrics paint a bleak picture of a person trapped in a cycle of emotional turmoil, substance use, and a longing for release from their suffering. The imagery of a DIY lobotomy serves as a powerful metaphor for the extreme measures one may consider when feeling lost and devoid of purpose. Ultimately, "Lobotomy" by b-UMB conveys a sense of deep despair and a yearning for recognition and understanding, even in death.


Line by Line Meaning

One time I saw a kid jump off of a bridge
Witnessing someone take their own life made me realize the fragility of life


And it was crazy how it made me feel alive
The tragedy made me appreciate the gift of life


I swore to myself I'd never ever want to die
I made a promise to myself to appreciate life and not consider suicide


But right now I'd rather overdose than cry
In moments of extreme emotional pain, I would rather numb myself than face the pain


It's okay
Despite my struggles, I try to maintain a sense of calmness


Just sit back
Take a moment to relax and reflect on life


Take a deep breath
Focus on the present moment and find peace within yourself


And relax
Let go of worries and find tranquility


When I'm dead I want the casket wide open
I want my true self to be seen even in death


Because in my bathroom I had gave myself a D.I.Y. lobotomy
Feeling trapped, I resorted to drastic measures to escape my suffering


There was nothing else to live for except for
In my darkest moments, all that kept me going was material possessions and substances


On my way home
Reflecting on my life journey and struggles


I was drinking Coca-Cola as my heart was getting colder
Using temporary distractions to avoid confronting my emotional pain




Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Lee Moen

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