Thorn In My Side
cain´s offering Lyrics

I did not hear the warning,
I was caught off guard and didn't know what was coming.

I did not see the signs.
I missed the clues that something was wrong.

You're the master of illusion,
You have a way of making things seem different than what they really are.

You're the devil in disguise.
You may look good on the surface, but you have a darker side.

Temptress in lace and leather,
You are alluring and seductive, dressed in provocative clothing.

You make me loose control.
You have a powerful hold on me that I cannot resist.

One sinful night,
We were together and did things we shouldn't have.

And I just lost my heart and lost my soul.
I fell deeply in love with you and gave everything I had to you.

I was the one to hold you,
I thought we had a deeper connection.

But not the only one.
But I was wrong, and you were seeing other people too.

I hear you say you're sorry,
You told me you regretted what happened and wanted to make amends.

But some things can not be undone!
But the damage was already done and could not be reversed.

I tried so hard to forget,
I tried to erase you from my memory completely.

Tried so hard to fuck it.
But it was difficult and painful to do so.

I tried to understand,
I wanted to comprehend why things happened the way they did.

But it's too late to make amends.
But it was past the point of repairing the damage between us.

Don't come here asking for forgiveness,
You cannot expect to be forgiven for what you've done to me.

For the things you've done.
Because the things you've done have hurt me too much.

Don't point your finger at me,
You cannot blame me for what happened, it was both of us involved.

Because you are the fallen one.
Because you were the one who made the mistake and fell from grace.

[Chorus:]
Refrain

Thorn in my side.
You are a constant source of pain in my life.

Forever hurting me.
You continue to cause me pain, even though we're not together anymore.

You're for my first,
You were my first love, and I will never forget you.

Stay for the night.
You say you'll be with me just for one night, but I know it won't be enough.

Please stay here,
I want you to stay close to me and not leave again.

Close to me.
I want to be physically close to you and feel your presence.

I'll play the clown,
I'll do whatever it takes to make you happy, even if it means making a fool of myself.

Just strike me down,
If it means being closer to you, I'll let you hurt me over and over again.

Again.
And I'll always come back to you, no matter how much it hurts.

Still searching for my pieces,
Even though we're not together anymore, I'm still trying to find all of the pieces of myself that I lost when we were together.

So still out of control.
I'm still struggling to come to terms with what happened and regain control of my life.

One piece is always missing,
No matter what I do, I feel like there's always something missing in my life.

And I don't know how to fill that hole.
And I don't know how to fix it or make it go away.

Still I don't know the answer,
Even though time has passed, I still don't understand why things happened the way they did.

Or what the question is.
I don't even know what I'm searching for anymore.

Don't know how weak I feel,
I'm still struggling to come to terms with how deeply affected I was by our relationship.

But I don't want it to end like this.
But I'm still hopeful that things will get better and that I can move on from you and find happiness.

Still I want to touch you,
Even though we're not together anymore, I still crave physical contact with you.

Still I long to hold you,
And I still want to hold you close and feel your body against mine.

Still I need you to be here,
I still have an emotional dependence on you and feel like I need you in my life.

Right here by my side.
I want you to be physically close to me and not leave me again.