Clover
certo1k Lyrics
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Now I'm fucking waiting till' I leave
I wish that I was free
I'm hoping you could see
I'm losing myself slowly
I'm smoking till' four in the morning
I'm so damn lonely
You don't even want me
All I ever needed was to see your face
Now I feel so fucked up so just get out my way
Four leaf clover looking at a picture of us over and over
What ever you say
All I ever needed was to see your face
Now I feel so fucked up so just get out my way
Four leaf clover looking at a picture of us over and over
It's not even funny girl yeah I can't even lie
Been on my shit yeah I been smoking getting high in the sky
And you ain't know it in the summer I done tried suicide
Yeah it's a bummer that you left me yeah I wish I would die
I been popping oxycontin girl I only live high
And I been acting like the shit when I get home I just cry
You fucking love it when I suffer I can see in your smile
I gave my life to the government won't be back for a while
Fuck
I'm losing myself slowly
I'm smoking till' four in the morning
I'm so damn lonely
You don't even want me
What ever you say
All I ever needed was to see your face
Now I feel so fucked up so just get out my way
Four leaf clover looking at a picture of us over and over
What ever you say
All I ever needed was to see your face
Now I feel so fucked up so just get out my way
Four leaf clover looking at a picture of us over and over
In these lyrics from certo1k's song "Clover," the artist expresses feelings of despair, loneliness, and longing for a lost love. The opening lines convey a sense of innocence and naivety that the artist has outgrown. They are now anticipating a future where they can break free from their current state of emotional turmoil.
The lines "I'm losing myself slowly, I'm smoking till' four in the morning, I'm so damn lonely" imply that the artist is resorting to destructive habits like excessive smoking to cope with their loneliness and inner struggles. The repetition of "four in the morning" suggests a cycle of self-destructive behavior that they feel trapped in.
The next set of lines expresses the longing for the person they have lost. The artist wishes that the other person could see their pain and understand the depth of their emotions. The line "You don't even want me" reveals a feeling of rejection, emphasizing the despair and heartbreak they are experiencing.
The mention of a "four leaf clover" and looking at a picture of "us over and over" indicates that the artist holds onto memories of their relationship. This symbolizes the hope for luck or a miracle to bring them back together. However, despite this longing and the desperate need to see the other person's face again, the artist feels messed up and wants them to stay out of their way, suggesting a conflicted state of mind.
The following paragraph delves deeper into the artist's emotional state, acknowledging their drug use as a form of escape and self-medication. They imply that they only feel alive when they are under the influence of substances, and they mask their pain by acting confident in public while privately shedding tears at home. The mention of suffering and the other person finding pleasure in it reveals a toxic dynamic in their relationship. Additionally, the line "I gave my life to the government won't be back for a while" suggests the artist may be in a situation where they have given up their freedom, perhaps referring to legal issues or imprisonment.
Overall, the lyrics of "Clover" delve into themes of heartbreak, loneliness, and self-destructive behavior. The artist expresses a desire for freedom from their emotional pain, longing to see the other person's face again while battling inner demons and toxic dynamics. The repetition of certain phrases emphasizes the cyclical nature of their struggles and emotions.
Line by Line Meaning
I used to naïve
I was once innocent and trusting
Now I'm fucking waiting till' I leave
Now I'm impatiently counting down the days until I can escape
I wish that I was free
I long for freedom from my current situation
I'm hoping you could see
I'm desperate for you to understand
I'm losing myself slowly
I'm gradually losing my sense of self and identity
I'm smoking till' four in the morning
I'm indulging in smoking until early hours, as an escape
I'm so damn lonely
I feel incredibly isolated and alone
You don't even want me
You don't even desire my presence or companionship
What ever you say
Regardless of what you say or do
All I ever needed was to see your face
All I ever craved was a glimpse of your face
Now I feel so fucked up so just get out my way
Now I feel emotionally destroyed, so please leave me alone
Four leaf clover looking at a picture of us over and over
Continuously looking at a photo of us, hoping for luck and happiness
It's not even funny girl yeah I can't even lie
The situation is not a joke, I can't pretend otherwise
Been on my shit yeah I been smoking getting high in the sky
I've been focused on my own life and coping by getting high
And you ain't know it in the summer I done tried suicide
And you didn't even realize that I attempted suicide in the summer
Yeah it's a bummer that you left me yeah I wish I would die
It's unfortunate that you abandoned me, I wish I could just die
I been popping oxycontin girl I only live high
I've been regularly taking oxycontin, it's the only way I feel alive
And I been acting like the shit when I get home I just cry
And even though I try to act tough, when I'm alone at home, I break down in tears
You fucking love it when I suffer I can see in your smile
You derive pleasure from seeing me in pain, it's evident in your smile
I gave my life to the government won't be back for a while
I sacrificed my life for the government and won't be returning for some time
Fuck
Expressing frustration and anger
I'm losing myself slowly
I'm gradually losing my sense of self and identity
I'm smoking till' four in the morning
I'm indulging in smoking until early hours, as an escape
I'm so damn lonely
I feel incredibly isolated and alone
You don't even want me
You don't even desire my presence or companionship
What ever you say
Regardless of what you say or do
All I ever needed was to see your face
All I ever craved was a glimpse of your face
Now I feel so fucked up so just get out my way
Now I feel emotionally destroyed, so please leave me alone
Four leaf clover looking at a picture of us over and over
Continuously looking at a photo of us, hoping for luck and happiness
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Certo1k Bruh
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