Hiding Place
dustbox Lyrics


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Staring at the candle light
Here in my dark hiding place
No one knows the real me
No more feigned smile
How should I live?
Should I become the one
that you want me to be?
Oh my twisted, chained up
heart is giving a cry
What am I living for?
I don't know...
If I can find out why,
I'll be relieved
I want proof that I'm alive
Proof that makes it all clear

Washed away by reality
Let it take me to drown the pain
My anger has lost it's way
Now it hurts those I love
How long's it been
Since I lost sight of
what's a lie and
what's the truth?
Pretty things like dreams
and hope I now refuse
What am I living for?
I don't know...
If I can find out why,
I'll be relieved
I want proof that I'm alive
Proof that makes it all clear

My thoughts are set on repeat
Can I get out
of this hiding place?
What's the reason I can't move?
Maybe I'm still afraid...
What am I living for?
I don't know...
If I can find out why,
I'll be relieved
I want proof that I'm alive
Proof that makes it all clear




What am I living for?
I don't know...

Overall Meaning

These lyrics from the song "Hiding Place" by Dustbox delve into the introspective thoughts and emotions of the singer, who finds themselves in a dark and lonely place of self-reflection. The opening lines, "Staring at the candle light, Here in my dark hiding place," metaphorically describe the singer's isolation and withdrawal from the outside world. They feel unseen and unknown by others, unable to show their true self and exhausted from pretending to be someone they are not.


The lyricist ponders how they should live, questioning whether they should conform to the expectations and desires of others. They express the pain of their heart, which has been broken and restrained, and desperately seek meaning and purpose in their existence. The lines "Oh my twisted, chained up heart is giving a cry, What am I living for? I don't know..." reveal the singer's anguish and confusion, as they feel lost and disconnected from their true purpose.


The singer's reality has overwhelmed them, and they seek solace in allowing it to engulf them in order to numb their pain. Their anger has strayed from its intended targets and now hurts those they love, indicating the destructive cycle they find themselves caught in. They confess to having lost sight of what is genuine and what is false, rejecting hopeful things like dreams and hope itself, possibly in an attempt to shield themselves from further disappointment or vulnerability.


As the lyrical narrative progresses, the singer reveals their struggle to break free from their current state of hiding and stagnation. Their thoughts seem trapped, constantly repeating and preventing them from moving forward. They acknowledge the fear that still grips them, hindering their ability to make a change and face the unknown. This fear could be born out of a past hurt or a fear of further rejection or failure.


In the concluding lines, the singer reiterates their quest for meaning, expressing a desire for proof that they are truly alive. They long for clarity and an understanding of their purpose, hoping that once they uncover why they are living, they will find relief from their internal turmoil. This search for proof acts as a means of validation and confirmation that they are on the right path, providing assurance that their existence holds significance.


Overall, these lyrics convey the singer's emotional struggle with authenticity, purpose, and fear. They highlight the isolation and confusion experienced when one feels disconnected from oneself and society. Despite their uncertainty, the singer yearns for clarity, growth, and a renewed sense of self, as they grapple with the complexities of their own existence.


Line by Line Meaning

Staring at the candle light
Contemplating in the dim light of a candle


Here in my dark hiding place
In the secluded depths of my secret refuge


No one knows the real me
Nobody truly understands my authentic self


No more feigned smile
No longer pretending to be happy


How should I live?
What is the right way to exist?


Should I become the one that you want me to be?
Should I conform to your desires and expectations?


Oh my twisted, chained up heart is giving a cry
My tormented and shackled heart is expressing its pain


What am I living for? I don't know...
I am uncertain about the purpose of my existence


If I can find out why, I'll be relieved
Discovering the reason would bring me solace


I want proof that I'm alive
I desire evidence to confirm my existence


Proof that makes it all clear
Evidence that provides clarity and understanding


Washed away by reality
Overwhelmed and consumed by the harshness of reality


Let it take me to drown the pain
Allowing the pain to submerge and engulf me


My anger has lost its way
My rage has become directionless


Now it hurts those I love
Causing pain to the people I care about


How long's it been since I lost sight of what's a lie and what's the truth?
It has been a while since I became unable to distinguish between falsehood and reality


Pretty things like dreams and hope I now refuse
I now reject beautiful things such as dreams and optimism


My thoughts are set on repeat
My mind is trapped in a repetitive cycle


Can I get out of this hiding place?
Is it possible for me to escape from this place of concealment?


What's the reason I can't move?
What is preventing me from taking action?


Maybe I'm still afraid...
Perhaps I am still overcome by fear


What am I living for? I don't know...
I am still uncertain about the purpose of my existence


If I can find out why, I'll be relieved
Discovering the reason would bring me solace


I want proof that I'm alive
I desire evidence to confirm my existence


Proof that makes it all clear
Evidence that provides clarity and understanding




Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: dustbox

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