The Monster
feat. Rihanna Lyrics

I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
I have accepted my personal demons that haunt me.

Get along with the voices inside of my head
I have learned to live with the thoughts and ideas that are present in my own mind.

You're tryin' to save me, stop holding your breath
Don’t waste your efforts trying to change me; let me live my own life.

And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy (crazy)
You find me odd and weird, but I am happy with who I am.

I wanted the fame but not the cover of Newsweek
I desired fame and fortune but never wanted to be in the public eye.

Oh well, guess beggars can't be choosey
I had to accept what I was given since I had nothing to start with.

Wanted to receive attention for my music
I hoped to achieve recognition for my musical works.

Wanted to be left alone in public, excuse me
I wished to be left alone in public spaces to avoid any public scrutiny.

For wantin' my cake, and eat it too, and wantin' it both ways
I wanted to have it all, and achieve my dreams without any compromises.

Fame made me a balloon 'cause my ego inflated
The fame that I received made me arrogant and conceited.

When I blew, see, but it was confusing
When I achieved my fame, I was left bewildered and unsure of what to do.

'Cause all I wanted to do's be the Bruce Lee of loose leaf
I strived to become the best rapper in the world.

Abused ink, used it as a tool when I blew steam (ooh)
I used my writing and creativity as an outlet for my emotions.

Hit the lottery, ooh-wee
I had a lucky break that changed my life.

But with what I gave up to get, it was bittersweet
Success came at a cost, which was hard to accept.

It was like winnin' a used mink
The victory felt cheap and not as impressive as I wanted it to be.

Ironic 'cause I think I'm gettin' so huge I need a shrink
Even though my success is growing, I feel like I am going insane.

I'm beginnin' to lose sleep, one sheep, two sheep
I struggle to sleep at night and cannot relax.

Going coo-coo and kooky as Kool Keith
I am losing my mind and acting more and more eccentric.

Now, I ain't much of a poet
Despite being a rapper, I don’t consider myself to be a natural poet.

But I know somebody once told me to seize the moment
I was given the advice to grab opportunities when they arise.

And don't squander it
I was advised not to waste any opportunities that come my way.

'Cause you never know when it all could be over tomorrow
Anything can happen, and my success can be taken away from me in an instant.

Sometimes I wonder where these thoughts spawn from
I contemplate the origin of my creative thoughts and ideas.

Yeah, ponderin'll do you wonders
Reflecting can be beneficial for the mind and soul.

No wonder you're losing your mind, the way it wanders
It is no surprise that I am going crazy, given how much my mind drifts.

Yodel-odel-ay-hee-hoo
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I think it went wanderin' off down yonder
My mind has gone off on a tangent or drifted away.

And stumbled onto Jeff VanVonderen
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'Cause I need an interventionist
I require professional help to overcome my demons.

To intervene between me and this monster
I need someone to help me deal with my inner demons.

And save me from myself and all this conflict
I need someone to help me overcome the struggles I face daily.

'Cause the very thing that I love's killing me
My passion for rap music is destroying me and affecting my mental health.

And I can't conquer it
My struggles feel insurmountable and impossible to overcome.

My OCD is conkin' me in the head, keep knockin'
My obsessive-compulsive tendencies are making me feel ill and disturbing my thoughts.

Nobody's home, I'm sleepwalkin'
I feel alone and alienated, and sometimes I feel like I am not living in reality.

I'm just relayin' what the voice in my head's sayin'
I am just expressing what my own mind is telling me.

Don't shoot the messenger, I'm just friends with the
I am the bearer of bad news, but I am not responsible for the cause of the problems.

Call me crazy, but I have this vision
Some might believe I am crazy, but I have an idea or a dream that I believe in.

One day that I'll walk amongst you a regular civilian
I hope to someday live a normal life like everyone else.

But until then, drums get killed and
Until then, I will continue to make music and express my creativity.

I'm comin' straight at MC's, blood gets spilled and
I will continue to compete with other rappers and will not hold back.

I'll take it back to the days that I'd get on a Dre track
I am returning to my roots with Dr. Dre and the classic West Coast sound.

Give every kid who got played that pumped-up feelin'
I want to inspire a new generation of rap fans with my music.

And shit to say back to the kids who played him
I want to empower those who have been marginalized or bullied for their love of rap music.

I ain't here to save the fuckin' children
I am not on a mission to save the world or to be a role model, just to make good music.

But if one kid out of a hundred million
If I can inspire or help even just one person, it will be worth it.

Who are going through a struggle feels it and relates, that's great
I hope to connect with people who are going through hard times and make them feel less alone.

It's payback, Russell Wilson
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Falling way back in the draft
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Turn nothin' into somethin', still can
I can make something out of nothing, regardless of my circumstances.

Make that, straw into gold, chump, I will spin
I can turn anything into a success or make the best out of a bad situation.

Rumpelstiltskin in a haystack
This line is nonsensical and has no clear meaning.

Maybe I need a straight jacket, face facts
I might need psychiatric help and need to face my demons head-on.

I am nuts for real, but I'm okay with that
I know that I am mentally unstable, but I have come to accept it.

It's nothin', I'm still friends with the
I can deal with the craziness in my mind and am accepting of my demons.