cutthroat
iann dior Lyrics

I know, got a feeling that I might blow
I have a premonition that I may become extremely famous, but this worries me.

Even though this industry is cutthroat
Despite the intense competition and lack of loyalty in the music industry.

Now I don't feel the same
My perception of things has changed.

Think these drugs drive me insane
I suspect my drug use is damaging my mental health.

Cutthroat, swear these bitches, they be cutthroat
People, especially women, are ruthless and untrustworthy.

I'm so low
I feel depressed and desolate.

Cruising through the city with my eyes closed
Driving in a dissociative state, without paying attention.

'Cause I'm losing my brain
Because my mental state is declining.

Gotta keep on moving straight
I need to persevere and stay focused.

Over, when you say it's over I'm not sober
When a relationship is over, I can't deal with it while sober.

Loner, she left me so lonely with no closure
After a breakup, I feel isolated and can't find closure.

They want to see me live
The audience is eager to see me perform live on stage.

And I cannot forgive
I can't forget or forgive past hurts and disappointments.

Think I'm really going psycho
I suspect I might be losing touch with reality.

Thinking that I might blow
I'm worried about the possibility of becoming too famous and overwhelmed.

And I can't let you in
I can't allow someone back into my life, no matter how much I miss them.

Baby, I can't forgive
I can't let go of the pain and resentment.

Got me hanging on a tight rope
I feel like I'm in a precarious position, with no escape.

It's time for me to let go, 'cause
I need to move on and let go of the past, because

These drugs got me thinking that I need you
My drug use is causing me to confuse my feelings and needs for someone.

But I don't really need you
I realize that I can live without the person, despite my emotions.

Like glass, I see right through you
I can see through your lies and manipulation.

Now why you acting new new, we both know what you wanna do
Why are you pretending to be someone else, when we both know your intentions?

Shorty in my phone
I have a girl's number in my phone.

But where you at?
But I don't know where you are.

Run off with my love, like you was a running back
You left me with no warning or explanation, like a football player running away with the ball.

But now I got you running back (ayy, yeah)
Now you want to come back to me, after leaving me hanging.

They know we them niggas
Other people acknowledge that we have talent and potential.

And that's why they hate us
Our success and popularity can breed envy and animosity.

Only worry 'bout the money
My main focus is on making money and securing my financial future.

So no you can't phase us
I won't let external factors affect me or my goals.

I can't never fall in love 'cause love is full of danger
I'm afraid of getting hurt and emotionally vulnerable by falling in love.

You were my other half and now you are a stranger
You used to be an important part of my life, but now we're completely disconnected.

Now I'm hard to reach, hard to find
I'm difficult to contact or locate, both physically and emotionally.

In my line, all the time, every night
I'm always working and available for my fans and collaborators, day or night.

We living in a trippy life, I'm sad inside
Despite the glamorous and exciting aspects of my life, I often feel empty and unhappy.

So I really don't care to fight, enjoy the high
I'm apathetic and indifferent towards conflicts and prefer to numb my feelings with drugs.

And now you want back in
After leaving me, you now want to re-enter my life.

But I can't let you in
But I can't allow you to come back or hurt me again.

Now you get to watch where I go
You will have to observe my success and progress from afar.

Got you going psycho
My rejection or absence is driving you crazy and irrational.

And no we can't be friends
We can't have a platonic and neutral relationship.

And we can't make amends
We can't reconcile our differences and resolve our conflicts.

Now it's time for you to let go
Now I want you to move on and let me be.

I'm just someone that you used to know
I'm a distant memory from your past, with no relevance to your present or future.