by your side
midwxst Lyrics

I've been on my own, on my own adventure
I have been navigating life independently, embarking on my own personal journey.

Split my heart in half, think that shit gave me a splinter
I experienced emotional pain that left a lingering, unresolved wound within me.

Don't wanna give you any publicity or attention
I have no desire to draw attention or give you any acknowledgement or validation.

Don't know how to love anybody, don't know the feeling
I am unsure of how to genuinely love someone and I am unfamiliar with the emotions associated with it.

Know I fucked up rather be right by your side
I am aware of my mistakes and would rather be close to you, supporting and comforting you.

Hiding all my feelings let it out I always cry
I keep my emotions concealed, but deep down, I consistently feel the need to express them through tears.

Can't make a decision, I can't even decide
I struggle to make choices and I find it difficult to arrive at a decision.

Might go up to heaven, I'll see you on the other side
There is a possibility that I might pass away and in that case, I believe I will reunite with you in the afterlife.

Girl I see you running from your problems
I notice that you are evading and avoiding your issues.

Don't know how to solve them
You are uncertain and clueless about finding solutions for your problems.

We both need a break from this, I'm sorry I'm not by your side
Both of us require some time away from each other and I apologize for not being there to support you during this period.

And now I hate me cause I can't be what you need anymore
Presently, I despise myself because I am unable to fulfill your needs any longer.

I wanna be there but we know it's not the same as before
I desire to be with you, but deep down, we both understand that our relationship has changed and cannot be what it once was.

You know I love you but it hurts too much to always be at odds
You are aware of my love for you, but it becomes overwhelmingly painful for both of us to constantly be in conflict.

And to sit and remember, all along I was tryna figure out what I did wrong
As I reflect, I realize that throughout our journey, I was constantly attempting to determine what I did to cause our problems.

But it's getting to me now and I'm exhausted
However, the weight of it all is now taking a toll on me, leaving me drained and fatigued.

I don't wanna call you back for a while tonight
For this evening, I have no intention of returning your phone call.

When I'm by your side we don't see each other, just a faded light and the space where another girl would lie on one side of your bed with a face like mine
Whenever we are physically together, our connection is diminished, no longer bright and vibrant. I notice the vacant space on your bed where another girl would be, resembling me.

I'm afraid that she's dead, let her rest
I fear that the past version of me is gone, and it is best to let that version rest.

Don't got another outlet to express how I'm feeling
I lack another means to effectively convey and communicate my emotions.

I don’t know who's real or fake, can't distinguish them, not revealing
I am unsure who among those around me is genuine or deceitful, as it is difficult for me to discern their true intentions, causing me to withhold my own emotions.

Gotta stop, gotta change, gotta get off my ass
I recognize the need to halt my current behavior, make alterations, and cease being idle.

Need to get you out my head, I need to forget about the past
It is imperative for me to remove you from my thoughts and let go of the memories from our shared history.

I’ve just come to the conclusion that nothing is meant to last
I have recently reached the realization that nothing in life is meant to endure indefinitely.

Time is starting to drift away from me, just look at the hourglass
The passage of time is slipping away from me, as evident by observing the diminishing sand in the hourglass.

Hard to let go, it’s so hard to forget
It is incredibly challenging to release and move on, as forgetting is equally difficult.

Remember the words, the last thing that you said
I vividly recall the words you spoke, the final statement you made.

Said it was you and not me, I'm misled
You asserted that the fault lay with you and not me, but now I realize I was deceived into believing that.

Sitting alone, sitting here with regret
I find myself isolated, filled with remorse and regret in my current state.

Hit my phone but I don't even wanna talk
You reached out to me, but I have no desire to engage in conversation.

Gotta run away, know that I'm not gonna walk
I must escape from this situation, and it is certain that I will not do so leisurely.

I don't got no time to waste, just look up at the clock
There is no time to spare, simply observe the ticking clock to understand the urgency.

I am at a loss of words, you put me in some shock
I am unable to articulate my thoughts effectively, as you have left me in a state of disbelief and astonishment.

My feelings hurt, what the fuck did you gain
My emotions are wounded, and I struggle to comprehend what you achieved by causing me pain.

Know that I'm broken, I will not be the same
Understand that I am shattered, forever changed by the experiences and hardships I have endured.

Imma make sure you remember my name
I am determined to ensure that you never forget who I am.

Thought we could be something, that shits a shame
I once believed that we had the potential to become something meaningful, but it is a disappointment and a regrettable situation.

By your side
Being close to you, offering support and companionship.

By your side
Remaining in your proximity, always ready to assist and stand by your side.

By your side
Staying alongside you, providing comfort and solace.

By your side
Being present and loyal, never straying away from your side.

Girl, I see you running from your problems
I observe you evading and escaping from the challenges and difficulties you face.

Don't know how to solve them
You are unsure and lacking the knowledge or skills to resolve these issues.

We both need a break from this, I'm sorry I'm not by your side
Both of us require some time away from this situation, and I apologize for not being there to support you during this period.

By your side
Being close to you, offering support and companionship.

By your side
Remaining in your proximity, always ready to assist and stand by your side.