Amnesia
mind.in.a.box Lyrics

I can see myself tucked in and fast asleep
The singer is describing a dream where they see themselves sleeping.

Looking all peaceful but in my dreams I weep
Although the sleeping image looks peaceful, the singer is crying in their dream.

From far up I'm looking down upon myself
The singer is viewing their sleeping self from an elevated position in their dream.

And I wonder who it is that's lying there
The artist is unsure of their own identity while viewing themselves in their dream.

I feel like in a world all beside myself
The artist feels lost and disconnected from reality.

Afraid I won't wake up with no one there to care
The singer is afraid of being alone and waking up without anyone to support them.

I know someone used to watch me in my sleep
The singer remembers having someone watch over them while they slept.

But some things seem just impossible to keep
Despite this memory, the artist knows that some things are bound to change and cannot be held onto forever.

I fight hard to bring it back into my mind
The artist is struggling to remember a past memory.

But to no use, it all seems to be a blank
Despite their efforts, the memory remains inaccessible and forgotten.

I wonder what it was that had me defined
The singer is curious about what their past experiences have contributed to shaping their personality.

But one thing I know, I have myself to thank
The artist acknowledges their role in creating the person they are today.

I'm not sure I want to know
The singer is uncertain if they want to know the truth about their past.

Any of the things I've done
The singer is hesitant to face their actions and decisions from the past.

I don't know yet where to go
The singer is lost and unsure of their direction in life.

But I'll accept my past is gone
The artist is coming to terms with the fact that they cannot change the past.

I feel like I have amnesia
The artist feels like they have lost their memories and sense of self.

And I've missed the heavenly host
The singer has missed out on something important and meaningful in their life.

I'm surprised I've come this far
The singer is surprised they have made it this far despite their past.

Living without what I need most
The artist acknowledges that they are living without something essential to their well-being.

I don't think I can go back
The artist feels like they cannot return to their past.

To the things that were before
The artist is referring to their past experiences and way of life.

Though I'm now always wearing black
The singer is using the color black as a symbol for their sadness and mourning.

I don't bemoan my life of yore
Despite their sadness, the artist is not resentful of their past life.

I wake up and feel like I should be at home
The singer wakes up feeling out of place.

But I do not know this, it's not where I belong
The singer feels like they do not belong in their current situation.

My head is dazed and my mind is all confused
The singer is feeling disorientated and unsure of what to do next.

And I'm not quite sure that I'm really there
The artist is questioning the reality of their current situation.

But the mirror shows me looking out, bemused
The artist sees themselves in a state of confusion in the reflection of the mirror.

Into a blank place that could be anywhere
The reflection in the mirror symbolizes the singer's feeling of being lost and unsure of their surroundings.

I feel like I have been left out in the cold
The singer feels abandoned and alone in their situation.

And it hurts to know that this is all my fault
The artist is taking responsibility for the pain they are experiencing in their life.

I leave this place to find familiar ground
The artist is attempting to find a place where they feel more comfortable and at ease.

But the whole world seems to have been rearranged
The artist is going through a major change and everything seems unfamiliar and different.

Now my former self is nowhere to be found
The singer feels like they have lost their sense of identity and cannot find their old self.

And I know that it's myself that's changed
The artist recognizes that they have changed as a person and that this is what is causing them to feel lost and confused.