Change
mind.in.a.box Lyrics

And I will never see the truth,
I am unwilling to see the reality of who I am and what I do.

This is not a matter of my youth.
My inability to change is not due to my age or life experience.

I do not need anybody else,
I think I can do everything on my own and don't need help from anyone.

Bonds would put my mind into cells.
Forming connections with others would restrict my independence and make me feel trapped.

And I will never know I was wrong,
I am unwilling to admit that I might be mistaken.

Never listen to those truly strong.
I ignore the advice of those who have real strength and wisdom.

I do not fear anything that's not me,
I am only afraid of things that challenge my self-image or my control over my life.

Ignorance is the ultimate key.
I believe that being ignorant of my flaws and limitations is the key to my happiness.

But I wouldn't want to live like this forever.
I don't want to keep living in this self-destructive way indefinitely.

But change myself? never, never!
I am so resistant to change that I refuse to consider it as an option.

The very thought sends shivers down my spine.
The mere suggestion of changing who I am fills me with fear and anxiety.

I'm sure everything, everything will be fine.
Despite my reluctance to change, I hold out hope that things will somehow get better on their own.

I am the one who cries out at night,
I am tormented by my own thoughts and fears.

For somebody to change my very core.
I wish someone or something could fundamentally alter who I am and how I see the world.

Not sure why I live in endless fright,
I am plagued by anxiety and uncertainty, without understanding why.

Doomed to love only myself forevermore.
I am trapped in a cycle of self-obsession and cannot form true connections with others.

I am the one who has no real friends,
Despite my efforts to attract followers, I am unable to make genuine connections with others.

Shallow people flocking to my banner.
The only people who seem to be drawn to me are similarly superficial or insincere.

Always trying to make easy amends,
I am quick to offer apologies or excuses as a way of avoiding real change or accountability.

Cherishing my own overbearing manner.
I take pride in my own domineering behavior and see it as a source of strength.

Life - always fragile.
I recognize that life is unpredictable and uncertain, but still refuse to consider any real changes to my behavior or outlook.

Love - always fleeting.
I regard love and intimacy as temporary and unimportant, and am uninterested in cultivating meaningful relationships with others.

But I wouldn't want to live like this forever.
I am worried that my current way of life is unsustainable and that I will eventually find myself in a state of crisis or despair.

Maybe I really was too clever.
I am starting to recognize that my intelligence or wit may not be enough to sustain me through difficult times.

But I wouldn't want to end like that.
Despite my reluctance to change, I am afraid of dying alone or unhappy.

I would die lonely and incredibly sad.
I am terrified of facing my own mortality with no meaningful connections or achievements to my name.

I will never drag myself out of this,
I am so deeply entrenched in my current mindset and habits that I cannot see a way out.

The shadows of my past bogging me down.
I am haunted by past traumas or mistakes that continue to weigh on me and hold me back.

Feeling lost in turmoil and crisis,
I am overwhelmed by my own confusion and chaos, without a clear path forward.

My face forever set in an endless frown.
My negative outlook and self-imposed isolation have left me perpetually unhappy and discontent.

Lust - always empty.
My pursuit of physical pleasure or gratification has left me feeling unfulfilled and unsatisfied.

Death - always tempting.
I am so miserable and hopeless that death seems like a desirable escape from my own existence.

Everything is about control.
I believe that the only way to find happiness or success is by exerting absolute control over my circumstances and my own behavior.

I must never slip, nor ever fall.
I believe that any failure or setback would be catastrophic and must be avoided at all costs.

Anything is possible for me.
I am convinced that with enough effort and willpower, I can achieve anything I set my mind to.

I must never doubt, and finally be free.
I see questioning or examining my beliefs as a sign of weakness, and believe that only by maintaining absolute faith in myself can I find freedom or happiness.

And finally be free.
I hope that my pursuit of control and independence will eventually lead me to a state of true freedom and contentment.